Lady's World

who you think you are？ seven~

2011-08-04T15:13:00.000-07:00

八月三日~

正式结束的日子~

我明白大家辛苦了那么久，也累了那么久~不管怎样，我是不想放开这一切~彼此之前不是应该有什么事都拿出来商量的吗？对，我知道是我的错！我不能分担你的压力，还添加压力令你更担忧~我真的很对不起！我也知道这样的日子会来临，可是我没想到那么快，才短短的两个月零七天！许多朋友都说长痛不如短痛！可是我想解决一切的问题，不想放弃，我很想努力保持这一段感情！可是看来你不想吧！谢谢你，我知道你为我好，不想让我痛苦和伤心~那如果我说我会等呢？不管怎样。我还是会坚持下去！这样很傻对吧？爱情是盲目的，当你爱上一个人，就是不管一切地去维持那段感情！现在是我单方面想这样~你已经说了不想了！我只能说好吧，就当回好朋友吧！就算给自己一些时间来放开这一切~但是我的心里很挣扎，我真的真的真的不想放弃！再怎么说开始这段感情的时候就已经知道了有这样的结果！开始的时候，我的确会问自己真的可以吗？那时候我给了自己答案！我想尝试努力地去爱一个人，那就应该做好自己的本分！负上这个责任！给他最好的，支持他，为他分担~当中我知道失败了！我也想去改！我努力地去了解你，可是每次都等超久才能等到你的一个短短的回复~这样我知道真的很难和你沟通~可是我还是不停地尝试！直到你会理会我！虽然我知道你很忙，你在忙你的工作~所以我也不能去打扰你了！就这样，日子一久，问题就变得更大了！甚至一整天都没有你的消息~我还要不停地去打听你的消息！我只想求个安心，想知道在远方的你还好吗！你说你不要我担心这个那个，那我求求你可以不要不理我吗？至少和我说你的情况！你不舒服，我不能在你身边，我也不知道你发生什么事，早上的事，你晚上，不对，是半夜才和我说你去了医院，这要我怎样？女生的疑心重，这是对的！我就是犯了这个错~但我也没问你，因为就算问你，我应该要等超久才有你的回复吧！所以我只能吞掉~我知道不应该把我本身的感想写给大家看~你说你觉得烦，因为每个人都来问你，你和我怎样了！对不起~我添了麻烦！那你可不可以别理他们怎么说？那你可不可以和我谈？为什么有些事情都不说~然后到最好就爆发出来！如果你肯和我谈一谈，我相信我们之间就会减少一些问题和误会~

对不起~

我很想拉回来~

可是看来已经不能了

我们只能做回朋友~

无法诉说的心情

2011-08-01T09:14:00.000-07:00

抱歉，这么迟才更新~

现在的我抱着疲累的眼睛来写这篇文~

这一个月是我心情有起有落的时候~

怎么说呢？

我很在意的他，突然和我不熟络！每每想和你谈天的时候，就一定有事情耽搁了我们！

男人每次说：你说你要明白我，可是你却没有！

女人说：我无言~对不起~

*其实我想问问看，你每次都不是很想和我聊，我该怎么了解你呢？？*

到最后我还是没问到这个问题，因为我不敢！我很怕~我很害怕那种感觉！所以我选择保持冷漠~

也许到你没那么忙后，你就会找我了~

你说你不想把所有东西公布给别人看，我尽量好吧？我真不知在哪里发泄~ 最近都不停地抽！我知道那是不好的！可是我就是停不了！还有不停地跳，最近也蛮卖力地跳舞，导致脚超多伤口，也差一点给扭到！不然我真的不知该怎么发泄！

我很想和你好好地聊一聊~可是就是时间配合的不好~

我真的不知该怎么办~

嘿啊~

拜托你别这样好吗~我很累啊~我能怎么办呀？

咩最大？？

2011-07-20T05:54:00.000-07:00

对唔住，依家既我有少少心情受唔到控制！

人地最想家的味道！无错，我都系！只不过，我每一次返来都发生唔开心的事！

我最惊就系听到叫我唔好跳！等阵先，你地从来都无试下去明白！你地话系才艺，就好似明星甘！做无奈嘎！甘点解仲有人做咧？点解仲有人跳？？

我知系钱既问题！有时我真系唔想嘎！人地迟出粮，我想点哦！我都想快点拿到钱！！我都很辛苦啊！！唔好下下都去到甘尽！求你地唔好再逼我啊！我就快颠啦！

都月尾啦！钱都无啊！

我本人都需要钱嘎！依家我电话有问题~又仲未还电话费！可唔可以快0地出粮啊！please please....

钱真系大晒啊！

BLANK

2011-07-13T09:35:00.001-07:00

what should i do??

what's going on??

what happen?

当你头脑放空时，你真的不会知道你在做些什么！

当然我并不是在说做傻事！那真的超白目~

来说一说，刚干了什么！

刚还想倒杯水喝，哪知道杯也拿不稳，差一点就被玻璃杯砸到脚了！不过这开心不了去哪！同一时间，为了可以抓住我的玻璃杯，哪知道我的手肘就撞向墙角去了！那超痛咧！我还回不了神，回到房间才觉得痛！可看到这位小姐是有多懵啊！

回到正题~

其实我一直在想什么？在这整个星期里，我只感觉到压力，感觉到烦恼！也许朋友多说得对！你不会担心他吗？终于说到了这个问题！对~这个问题从一开始就存在了~可是我相信他~我知道许多人都会说：你也会有失策的时候！我真的有想过这问题，可是情侣之间就是要彼此信任，路才会走得远！如果你爱他，就不该这样对待他，也许在他的心里也会这样想！这不能阻止，但我是觉得，不应该这样去把问题复杂化~所以很矛盾，现在就当是过渡期！彼此互相鼓励才是最重要吧！让我们一起努力吧~~

让我来告诉自己吧！不要再发梦了啦！不然什么事你也做不上手了！

别想那么多好吗！

每天嘻嘻哈哈的我，今天是被敲到手的原因给弄哭吗？

搞不清楚啊！

哈~ -.-

Day with the "N"

2011-07-05T12:14:00.000-07:00

"N" for negative!!!

okay.. i'm not that negative person but i'm wearing NEGATIVE !! how about you??

what is NEGATIVE? it's a new brand fashion in malaysia..

Negative want you to prove em wrong! this brand bring the message to all the youth out there,don't give up for your dream,prove it to those people never understood and deny what your thinking/mind!

anyway.. check out the link below..

Negat!ve's official website

it's really glad shoot for nigel spark feat point blanc-prove em wrong music video! and it's out!! check the video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pI-hmcdp2tc

（i'm sorry couldn't upload the video!)

guys..check the link! prove em wrong music video

and here the pic from negative..

so what you waiting for??

let's prove em wrong!!

yeah...

love and peace~

i'm always late~

2011-07-03T10:48:00.000-07:00

sorry for late updated..

really sorry about that~ i was busy for show and rehearsal recently..and those things never finish yet!

anyway...gotta update my shit now!! haha....XD

sorry for being rude! i'm mad tired for this morning flight from kota kinabalu to kuala lumpur! opps..time to sharing my story..me went to kk for astro media night with soul krazy~ ofcoz meet up my LIN-C (arrogant)'s friends in kk and that's really great to meet them up! always mad fun and chilling with them~ u guys know saturday night sure get hancai like crazy and like nobody care right! so i do!! but the next day woke up at early morning,carried my f***ed up heavy like elephant stupid bags.. i though i can enjoyed my sleeping time in plane when on the way back to kl,but NO!!! damn the naughty's kids sitting my back and keep kicking my seat, i have endured it because that's a kids.. seriously i don't know how many times she kicking my seat in 2 and half hours flight time!! so how could i fall asleep?? god damn...

another worst thing..my back getting hurt!! i can't even move my neck! so i make a decision- go enjoyed THAI MASSAGE!! woohooo.what i can describe it??? AWESOME!!!!! thanks to yvonne kan because i don't even know there have arokaya thai massage house! experience true thai traditional massage to help relieve body discomfort and improve blood circulation! the arokaya thai traditional massage house is located in sunway pyramid shopping mall LG2.111~ that's a place can relaxed your mind,ofcoz the therapists comprise thai master therapists really great and the staffs are friendly and nice!! arrggg,i want to get it somemore because i'm only choose foot and back massage package!! but it's really good for us! guys..go and try ~~

owh...

i'm changed my hair colour again!!! oops,i did it again!! lol

here we go

sorry for the retarded face!! haha.. i like this colour much.feel that be like a rocker!! hahaah...XD..*perasan sia*

haha, and i got wig again for show! you know what the other said??

I'M LOOK LIKE AGUA *我看起来像个人妖*

yaa..yaa..yaa..i know im not really suitable with long hair!! but before the short hair,my hair is long too!! hmmmm..whatever! lol

what time is now??? 3:20am!!! damn...i gotta sleep now!! stay up late is not good for healthy!!! i'm serious yo!! okay..i'll be continue blogging soon! nite peeps....

200611

2011-06-19T05:44:00.000-07:00

又不能陪伴爸爸過父親節～
真不孝啊～對不起，因為今天要補課所以都不能陪你吃頓晚飯～

這幾天的運氣並不是很好啊～我的眼睛又出問題了！這次是眼皮敏感啊～可能使用了某個牌子的eye & lip remover 所以導致眼皮超乾，然後雙眼皮貼也是其中一個原因！各位mm們要小心啊！老娘現在正存錢，想直接去做眼皮埋線，把它給弄成雙眼皮···因為本人沒膽去割，還是做埋線的比較好吧！這樣就不用擔心把眼睛給弄醜了（因為現在的左眼超醜啊）！剛也和babo談了，他也說可以，那我真的要打算了咯····

所以啊，要努力賺錢了啦！打算在這個月買ipad2可是看來都沒貨了啦！怎麼買啊？？哎呀，老娘要存錢買ipad2,眼皮埋線還有存錢到韓國～
看來一個月裡沒有三千塊是不行的～加油吧！！

接下來的時間蠻緊湊的，要開始回我的bgirl生涯～哈哈～沒啦，就是要練回來啦！太久沒練了，感覺有點不舒服，一出力便便都快要出來了啦！哈哈～給點時間，可能真的可以練回來啊！！太久沒練舞了，就是會有這種懶散的心才導致現在這樣～～ -.- wackkkkk...

今天，其實快被我的寶貝給氣死了！一整晚不找我算了！在今天下午告訴了我什麼原因不能找我！聽了真的快哭了啦！也不知道該氣死還是怎樣！！
ps: you know i really worried about you k.. although u apologize to me but i don't really want to heard that anymore! anyway,take care yourself! i can't beside you and care of you，ofcoz i wish i'm there for you! just be careful okay..don't make me mad again! babo yaaa..
try to be sweet and good boyfriend ...okay!!*opps..sounds like a queen,ya know what am saying*
by the way,i'm waiting his reply now! he gone again and leave me alone here >,< maybe party hard with his buddy now~

good night everyone.. sweet dream and tomorrow will be better... =)

xoxo

Randomly .. _

2011-06-06T08:52:00.000-07:00

just random to post because i got no idea now.. *blank*

finally i fell in sick,flu,sore throat and lil bit fever , and god damn~ i got my back hurt again!! what a day,finished rehearsal and back to my home! but luckily still can dinner with my family,that's good because imma bad daughter who always chill out with friends and not staying at home for whole day~ damit..

actually i don't feel like want to blogging today,i need some rest seriously! just because of babo,so im in blogging mode now!

well, want to sharing something about today! just done our routines for dance expo in this saturday at ipoh! okay..im gotta promote again! hey ladies and gentleman.. please come and support the events,this is the dance expo 2011 at ipoh, get ur ticket and come and watch us soul krazy, SFB, dancologist, dynamix, mustang crew, hmc phlow, metalloid, freshype, fresh beat rockerz, floor fever and ECX rock the stage! check out the link yo
360 dance expo 2011

opps...we haven't get our costume yet!! i gotta go shopping again and buy some dope shit! anyway,i just bought this last few days ago....
vintage high waist denim .

sunglasses from cotton on

ofocz i get some dope wedges from forever 21!!
i love it so much but sorry a lil bit broke because im use it for podium! that's hurt my heart seriously T.T

what i want to get some more! planning want to get a vintage long skirt,some cool hat and some printed shirt or tee!

go with hat~~

long skirt like this

jeffrey campbell heels or boots~
dope shit is hard to find..
whateva...
that's not important for me...

i gotta save up my money and go a trip~~
ofcoz i want to see my baby soon!! hopefully *finger cross* ...
do take care yourself ham kah ling.. don't make me mad about you! although i'm always told you i hate you much~ but you was know that right? you know am say what am say! i mean i love u much 바보.. 보고 싶어

너 정말 귀여워..... XD

and i learned this ..i have no idea that's true or wrong *don't laugh okay*

언제나 널 생각하고있어

xoxo....

great moment.. 260511

2011-05-29T09:52:00.000-07:00

260511

260511 (thursday) is a good day,what the f***, i keep blur-ing now!!!haha.....XD ！！！ anyway,that's the story begin, a guy leave me a great moment, i still remember that even is two days ago!

thanks so much because you really care everything about me! i'm sorry,i didn't tell you what is my feeling to you! you know right,imma shy babo!! XD...... You're so sweet and lovely,although you always hancai but it's doesn't matter, i'm still with you...

i love and i care about you..

u know i was crying because u gotta off to korea very soon! and when we can meet up and chilling together? i tried hold my tears..but i can't! because you know that's really hard to meet each other..

u hugging me and asked me to stop crying! yea..like u said don't try to be mad girl keep thinking much! everything will be fine...

a big thank you to AE IN..
you teach me lot,well..it's really sweet to be with you!

i love you
that's what i want to let you know through here
and thanks to you caring me..can i say so,that's why i'm crying for!

please come back hurry....im missing you here...

xoxo

rainy day...

2011-05-19T07:51:00.000-07:00

raining raining...

what you doing there??

chilling with coffee?

blogging??

playing online game?

study?

dancing??

anyway, it's really bored when you need to pack a lot of stuff and carried all the stuff GO HERE and GO THERE!!

sometime i love friday much..but sometimes not.. every friday and saturday working with a lot of costume and for sure,i will stayed my friend's house!! this is why i need to bring a lot of things!!

my schedule for friday,saturday and sunday! friday- rehearsal,going off to kl and find my stuff,and show! saturday- going to friend's studio opening and teaching waacking trial class,of course rush to kl for show after my trial class! sunday-no more rest!! 3pm going to puchong for street jam and party till night!!!

thought can rest at home on monday,but warafak!! almost forgot i got class somemore!!

....
...

at least i got things to do!!

i won't get bored with it...hahaha

just tiring!!! -.-

whatever.....

i miss shelby much!!! she is my power!!! haha

end up with my pic...=)

xoxo

the day before...

2011-05-09T11:44:00.000-07:00

finally..

im happy with that..

but

i still remember last time how we met,how you be good with me..

yea..

i keep telling myself.. seven please forget about it!

but i can't..

still stubborn with it..

finally i know i can't let them away from me..

only time let them fly away from here.

it's a nightmare or ??

i'm sorry with my problem and screw everything up..

and make it worst

it's bad....

i'm sorry

after that

at least i know what's my feeling for u

and u never turn back and looking me

i remember that~

although the feel is wack.

but i'm really glad to know everything about u

2011

should forget you

like a snake with poison

and bring that to me..

although im not dead

but that's hurt..

thank you stranger..

as good as well..

一首想給媽媽的歌～

2011-05-05T07:16:00.000-07:00

a song for my mum..and thanks for my friends to sharing this song to me,it's really touching and nice by KZ ( sanGfan生番)
here's the lyrics.
and the link too

sanGfan Presents 容易受傷的女人

容易受傷的女人 by KZ

現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位
現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位
現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位
現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位

有今生無來世你我無分
我講緊係含辛茹苦嘅母親
細細個我爸爸已經離開咗
得返細佬妹幾個仲有你同我
有好多好多個你唔喺度嘅夜晚
照顧細佬妹我被逼學識煮晚飯
學識洗衫學識換床單
你無望過我一眼因為每一晚你都要加班
好少機會坐低同你慢慢傾計
但我知道你係好多野收喺心底
你緊張我地遠遠多過你自己
就晒我哋口味當自己係後備
粗糙嘅雙手心裡面嘅傷口
無諗過報酬有眼淚你將佢倒流
生日唔應該係慶祝我嘅出世
應該係紀念你好辛苦咁生我出嚟

現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位
現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位
現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位
現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位

你從來唔會講你個心有幾傷
但我見到你喺房喊濕咗紙巾幾張
你一個養大我哋三個細路仔
轉嚟嘅係你額頭上面嘅幾條路軌
你捱艱抵夜編織獨家嘅溫暖牌
仲話只係母親嘅天職我聽見心都暖埋
我諗你嘅勇敢係最具美感
天跌落嚟你笑住咁話當被冚
你成日話如果喺出面比人蝦
返嚟屋企啦起碼仲有我呢個阿媽
你成日擔心我哋會受到傷害
你選擇單身一個人去建立我哋嘅將來
擔心我哋學壞擔心喺學運會落敗
擔心我哋出夜街擔心我哋比人拐帶
我記得你成日話雖然屋企好細
只要我哋一家人齊親情係最寶貴

現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位
現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位
現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位
現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位

每當我唔開心你會想辦法氹返我
你話好感謝神安排咗你去生我
你收工幾攰都好返屋企第一件事
就係擁抱然後陪我哋睇電視
我好感激你不過無親口對你講
我將我嘅心意寫成歌詞然後放喺你房
希望你明白我並唔係變咗
我依然係我雖然笑容係唔見咗
可能因為工作關係少咗機會見你
你話我細細個已經係神龍見首不見尾
同以前一樣你依然係咁醒訓
同以前一樣我同你都係似足個餅印
唔想令你哭成淚人滿面淚痕
所以我要保護呢個容易受傷嘅女人
今次我要用歌詞去表達我嘅心聲
一個押韻代表一朵康乃馨

現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位
現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位
現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位
現在將來你都一直係喺我心裡面佔一席位

*happy mother's day*
~母親節快樂~

放～

2011-04-28T17:57:00.000-07:00

之前還想寫一個關於心裡的感受的blog.時間一直拖，直到現在，終於要寫了！

以前
曾經這樣想過，打死我也不會放手，要固執！這樣才會成功！對，固執固然對某事是好的，但不是所有事都要固執才能做到！但直到現在，我明白了！固執，不一定是好事！各位，請你往後面看看，你有傷害過人嗎？傷至別人的心，傷至別人的感受～有人告訴我，做事一定要狠心，不管什麼事情也好，一定要下狠心！以前可能我會，但現在，我不希望有這個機會！為什麼要狠心呢？對，也許你被人傷害過，所以你要做的更好，越狠心，你就會得到你想要的安全感！此時，你有往你周圍看看嗎？身邊的人也許你的狠心，而被受傷害了，你的良心過得了嗎？好，不說！那我問你，冤冤相報何時了？到後來彼此已傷痕累累！這不是也在傷害自己嗎？

有時候
有些人，就是不管任何事，偏偏就是要去！可是你知道身邊的人都在擔心嗎？嚴重的話，也許為了你，咽不下飯，每次都心煩！如果你不想這樣，為什麼不嘗試溝通呢？可能有些人的溝通方式不一樣！對我來說，在溝通時，拿出誠懇的眼神，一副自信滿滿的樣子，和證明給他們看你已經可以照顧自己了，無須擔心的樣子！請問你可以嗎？我到現在也還沒有這樣的樣子！因為我還沒成功，我還沒達到我想要的，所以我要拿些什麼給他們看！可能他們會問一些問題，而你無法答他們，這不是他們的問題，是你自己！因為你無法給自己一個答案，更別妄想要給別人答案！所以總是被問到變啞巴去了！
這就是我的經驗，許多人都遇過這種問題，不防大家可以討論一下啊··

當一個人，可以因為什麼而放棄對自己很重要的東西呢？為什麼就是有這種人？外面的人怎麼想，可以不去理！但你自己呢？良心何在啊？

為什麼不可以嘗試學會看開呢？
這不是一天裡面可以做到的！放開，也是其中在人生里要學習的過程！
想清楚真真的問題所在！可能不是在別人的身上，而是在自己的身上發現到錯誤！
就好像一隻手指指向別人，可是其他的手指都在指著自己
不要一直覺得是錯的，覺得自己是可憐的！不要這樣想，你可以把所有的事變得更美好～

到現在我還在學習，把自己的錯誤更正
盡力做得更好～

280411

2011-04-28T06:41:00.000-07:00

無聊的一整天
我真乖，倒是和朋友出門找必需品，可以說一整天都在rawang，其實泡在這裡的感覺不錯嘛！
幹嘛每次都要去到那麼遠呢？哈哈，但是明天還是要到kl啊！難道就不用工作嗎？？

明天我要很hippie
我不管了，超想有酒陪伴的日子，哈哈～
開玩笑，倒是和朋友chill chill來一兩杯還不錯的感覺嗎！
還是有人可以作客，請喝杯啊？
哈哈
別不要臉了

哦，說到不要臉，可讓我想起最近有許多事都和不要臉有關！到底什麼事啊？難道‘不要臉’已經帶出了新潮嗎？算了，撇開不說！

還想暢談今天發生什麼事，但來不及了！pc要借別人用用，所以要快啦！

好，朋友們給個意見吧！想換個髮型，怎樣？想把頭髮給弄卷！！但又想換色！真不知怎樣～想得頭腦快爆了！XD

再來po上一張型女-徐濠縈的照照！
喜歡她的鞋啊！！要上哪找啊？？hmmm...

peace

xoxo

gotcha..

2011-04-25T03:40:00.000-07:00

hey did you guys remember blog i posted last few weeks ago?

title :KL and Genting
http://ladysavoon.blogspot.com/2011/04/genting-and-kl-show.html

remember talking about the video we made at genting?
haha..
it's coming out
you had to check that!!

PARTY ROCK(STUPID VERSION)

its really had fun with buddies..

lets party rock again!!

woohooo...

xoxo

Collaboration

2011-04-25T03:09:00.000-07:00

GUESS WHAT..

IT'S FIRST INTERNATIONAL COLLABORATION

NEGATIVE X THEOTHERDUCK

'DARE TO BE UGLY,PROVE EM WRONG'

Its OFFICIAL, this crossover will be launched on the 25th of April 2011. More info & pictures please check out the fan page.

Negative-prove em wrong's fan page
www.facebook.com/ProveEmWrong

theOTHERduck's fan page
http://www.facebook.com/pages/theOTHERduck/27042533633

stay tuned..

peace..
xoxo

250411 with lovely family

2011-04-24T08:25:00.000-07:00

sometime it's really wack when you hang out with your buddies..

everyone stick with i-phone la,i-pad la, mac-book la,blackberry la ( although im using bb too,hehe)
example like we heading some place and chilling, and in the end ?? ALL ONLINE.PLAYING GAME,TALKING ON THE PHONE,BBM AND ETC

haha.. don't screw..
just let them be..because i'll join them once i get i-phone5!!!! XD

stop rubbishing..

i got lovely lil sis..she so cute and gorgeous!!
say hi to everyone!!
she's a cute and lovely little girl!! and she quite talent in musicality~~
her name - SHELBY

she curious what i'm doing *actually im make up-ing*

so this a pix ,quite funny because she asked me do make up for her,and wanted me to apply eye lash for her! but in the end,she give up for lash because she feel SCARED..lol
haha...

feel like want to pinch her cheeks..too cute ma lil shelby!! lol... *im sound like ..... damn geli siaaa*

opps...
how about her parent?
duh...

Mr. and Mrs.
KELVIN AND YUKI

don't judge them from outside!!
they're crazy,funny,nice,friendly and what else!! anyway, they teach me lot of thing,sharing and caring! one of the most thankful person in my life..woot woot......... thank you very much... KAMXIA!!!

support their FAMILY
if you want to get tattoo or piercing,
click the link below and check out their page.

TATTOO FAMILY

maybe you can drop by their shop and ask for opinion..

address:
Lot LG 084 & G 004, Sungei Wang Plaza, 50250 Jalan Sultan Ismail, Bukit Bintang, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

peace and enjoy life... =)

work hard

2011-04-19T10:36:00.001-07:00

hey..wassup..

sorry been busy for show and rehearsal,time for updates my blog

guys,did u know HANGER magazine?
i'll punch u if u don't know about that.. *na..just kidding*

so glad to collaboration with hanger,its fun and chilling ! hanger magazine usually published twice a month.. its a photoshoot with UNIQLO. and that will publish in end of this month! i love the theme of shoot, it's cargo and chinos collection with uniqlo,and the whole shoot is really really chillax *chilling and relax*! haha..thx to miranda from hanger and julian..

you know like sometime work hard for everything,but sometime i need a break! well , work hard better than free.why say so? maybe i need money..who dont want money right? i'm planing to go travel but failed. money issue, job and family issue, im facing those problem everyday!! stressed always,but it's doesn't matter,it's worth for my life..

my life like a party..
happening always ya.. that sound fun..lol

haha..

pix of the day..

took at GRAFA(ss15) after shoot.. =)

xoxo

200411

2011-04-19T09:28:00.000-07:00

最近都在忙什麼？
都在表演啊

那你賺得很多咯～
誰說，屁啦！其實我們都賺得很少啊！

每個工作崗位都有它的辛苦的存在

現在，真的很希望每天都在跳！雖然還會埋怨，因為真的超累的！可是可以每天都在跳，那種感覺真的蠻爽的～哈哈～有些人會說神經病啦！可是，當你休息時，就感覺到：‘唉，為什麼那麼悶啊？好想跳舞啊！’ 其實這是我們的工作～就像普通人去上班一樣～所以別把舞蹈這個職業看得那麼不一樣，我們也是在為自己的工作打拼着！還有，可能還是會有些人覺得舞蹈賺不了錢～對，也許真的賺不了許多，但這就像是在人生買個經驗！錯～是用錢也買不回來的！

舞蹈也是一種藝術
把你的心情帶進去，在呈現出來，不管每個角度，線條，旋律感都抓得好好～用心去把所有心裡想要告訴別人的感覺給帶出來～我是否說得有點誇張？？？？？哈哈～不過說真的，跳舞就是享受那種過程，享受那種感覺～

這就是今天突然的感覺吧？
哈哈～
好了，我要去運動了啦～
晚安咯

凌晨

2011-04-10T10:30:00.000-07:00

想把題目寫成午夜～
可是有點恐怖，還是把它給換去凌晨好了～嘻嘻

也不知道想幹些什麼，就是睡不著，那就部落一下吧～

剛剛在做夢，在想頭髮幾時才會長呢！雖然對現在的短髮還滿意，可是看見別人的長髮，心裡酸溜溜的，為什麼別人長髮都那麼好看啊！那我的頭髮何時才會長呢？？有點搞笑吧？？明明說很喜歡短髮，那現在又說要長髮！女人真善變！！矛盾～

有時在想，為什麼胸部就不可以再大一點！為什麼皮膚就不可以在白一點！為什麼肚子就不可以再平一點！為什麼身高就不可以再高一點！為什麼！為什麼～聽到了，你也會覺得煩！簡單說一句！人是不會滿足的！要是滿足了，世界上就不會一直發展了啦！

這就是女子的心聲啦！是會去想一想～可是，實際一點吧！都已成事實了，就不該埋怨那麼多，想一下讓自己開心點就好了啦～哈哈哈～

至少我很開心能夠活在這世上就好了！

在凌晨，又無聊的我！完成這一篇，就該去減肥了啦！哈哈～我知道我太瘦了，我會努力增肥，可是會減掉肚腩！！把討厭的肚腩拿走！！

晚安了啦～

100411

2011-04-10T05:12:00.000-07:00

its great to stayed at home..
save up my money and get what i want on may!!
XD

sorry for late updated..
went to kuantan for camel black & white regional launch agenda at hyatt hotel~
we're dancers for the launch..nothing special to post it.. XD

APRIL..this is a poor month for me!! seriously,no INCOME!!!:( keep waiting for show money,and its fucked up!! i have no idea when i can get all the money..maybe after two months? or more then that?? hell yeah.. hopefully get all the money as soon as possible *finger cross*

like i said.. no money .. so i'm not going out for shopping in this month!! i hate when i saw some nice stuff at this moments,because u got no money to buy it! i bet alot of peoples understand my feelings.. JUST LOOK BUT NOT BUYING..that's suck yo!!

okay..forget about it..

when i look at the mirror.. farking hate my big tummy!! i should cut it off, but im getting lazy!! fucked up lazy!!! activate my motivation now ... please seven!! ur big spider tummy so ugly!! go exercise more..gogogo!!!
go NOW!!!!!!!

:P

pray for japan

2011-04-07T10:25:00.001-07:00

Japan just got hit with another earth quake with another tsunami warning.

from the news..

TOKYO: Japan's meteorological agency says it has lifted a tsunami warning for the northeastern coast 90 minutes after a 7.4-magnitude earthquake struck offshore.

the quake hit about 11:30pm thursday japan time,(10:30pm in malaysia time)

Officials said Thursday's quake was a 7.4-magnitude and hit 25 miles (40 kilometers) under the water and off the coast of Miyagi prefecture. The quake that preceded last month's tsunami was a 9.0-magnitude.

U.S. Geological Survey gave the preliminary magnitude as 7.4 and it struck off the eastern coast 60 miles (100 kilometers) from Sendai and 90 miles (140 kilometers) from Fukushima. It was about 215 miles (345 kilometers) from Tokyo.

that's the information in the star news..

hope everything will be fine in japan and pray for them!
i'm quite nervous because i've got some of the friends at japan too! after the nuclear plan exploded,and earthquakes hit japan again! what's going on ,EARTH?? are you fell sick?? why everything come with sudden and gone sudden??

we can't help anything now,pray for them please..

check this-updated at 23:35 JST 7,april 2011

Tsunami Information (High Tide Time and Estimated Tsunami Arrival Time at each place)

handmade stuff..

2011-04-07T09:51:00.001-07:00

i wish am so talented like her..

miss vicky aka my sis ..
we both look a same because of our style..
she worked for part time dancer and make up artist too..
why am said she is talented?? i'm not even know she can do such of thingy when the first time i meet her in dance studio. she look wild and crazy,doesn't look like a female too..haha..oppsie,sorry!!

but

there some cute and handmade stuff made by her..
want to share with my friends..
check out her blog...

Hue Vicky's

that you can see some cute handmade dolls..
like this
or
or
or

my favorite dolls..
cute rabbits
how about some hot stuff..??
bikinis ofcoz..

there she is..the model inside this pix..
hot girl as well!! hue vicky..

so please support ma girl..
you can check out her fb as well

Hue Vicky AuntieGrandmama (Aunty Mum)

peace and love..

Genting and KL show..

2011-04-07T08:45:00.001-07:00

went to genting highland again for ANUGERAH BINTANG POPULAR 2011..
opening show with azlan(azlan & the typewriter) , ning baizura, adira and farhan.
and backup for dato' siti nurhaliza..she a cute,friendly and nice person! so glad to danced with her..

first im quite bored for saturday! we need to be there for rehearsal with artist and till late! it's fine although so tiring! what's thing in my mind after rehearsal?? okayy..am feel so fuck because of PMS!! headache,pain,and dizzy for whole day!! i should take some rest but can't!! SO FINE!!
at last,am so HAPPY because kelvin,yuki and zicho bring beers for us!! so lovely..although me in pms mood,i don't care once i get beers!! lol... and sharing with yuki! such a lovely night.. ;)

the worst thing..
we need to wake up at 11am but we slept at 5am!!
so what we call?? 抵死！！
hahaha...
luckily we're not late because some of the peoples late then us!! so whatever.. XD

waiting is wack,u know why?? i doesn't like to wait!! wasted time,and kinda mad about it??
so we just wait and wait until the call time..so what we can do on that fucking long long period? everything like changed the cloths,gossiping,dancing * syok sendiri we called*, bullshiting, singing like nobody care and many else!! oppss..there some DOPE shit we can't lose it!!! sounds dope right?? what's that??

...
...
..

EVERYDAY IM SUFFLING
party rock anthem by LMFAO

check them out..

you can found some dancers in the mv like quest crew..
wooohoooo...

okayy..let me tell you some secret!! a new video will coming soon.. *shhhhh..*
alright,that's all ..check out my blog once i updated ..
XD

finally..we're done!! good job everyone..haha..it's good to dance with all dancers!
it's really tiring

rush back to kl and stayed with my buddies so we can go flash mob on next day!

enjoy everyday with full of fun and joy!! this is what we've got,happening everyday ,and EVERYDAY WE SUFFLING...haha

peace everyone..=)

come out with new look for dato' siti..
this is what i've wore for the last show..backup song BUKAN CINTA BIASA by dato' siti nurhaliza..become like wonder girls with von,yvonne,nadiha,nita,nadiah,mahani and lynn..

don't worried..that's a hair wig!!

XD

20110329

2011-03-28T10:25:00.000-07:00

my mum said i'm old fashion! really??
okay,she not acceptable what i'm wearing now..
maybe i love something special,something different and she don't like it..this is what we always fighting for..hahahaha

madonna rock~

back to topic.. i'm going to buy some wig for myself..so bored with my short hair!! we should try something new right? so don't worry,will post up 'LONG HAIR SEVEN' pixie as soon as possible,but don't laughing okay?? i know it's weird and funny!!! LMFAO.. haha

for those who love dancing..

please come and join 1G waacking workshop at Raydio dance academy,klang~

she is the princess IHOW (korea)
check out the event as well..
1G waacking workshop

get your slot as fast as possible because there got a new classes at 8pm till 930pm!
Date : 29 March (Tues)

Fee : RM75

Time : - 6.00pm - 7.30pm
- 8.00pm - 9.30pm

kindly contact
016-9198813 / 016-6687686

she been coming for workshop before, unfortunately i got show on that day!! fucked up!! :(
remember the last time i saw her is singapore code edge 2010! she take part in solo category , i was crazy when i'm saw her dancing with her damn attitude..like OMG and keep shouting like nobody care, haha!!! so what i'm waiting for?? get my slot and take her class!! finally!!! yeah yeah... ;)

well.. my schedule is full now! rehearsal and show,rehearsal again and show again! quite busy in this few weeks,but that's good for me!!! so i can earn more money and traveling taiwan,bangkok,vietnam and singapore! yeappieee..

what's time is now? 2:18 am..
i should heading my bed and sleep well!!
i even haven done my stuff yet and i was not feeling well..stomachache again!! damn.. because i ate mc.d ayam goreng(spicy) in this afternoon?? there like something burning inside my tummy! =(

whatever ..
good night and sweet dream all!
i got rehearsal at 2pm!! arrgggg..tomorrow is tiring day yo!!

-.-

Time- fly like a G6

2011-03-27T11:24:00.000-07:00

時間過得蠻快的！

轉眼間已經快到四月了！

先來報一報最近的事物！

相信許多人都有去看或在電視上看到第二屆 My Astro 至尊流行榜頒獎典禮

很想再看重播，想看看跳得怎樣！不過很開心和那麼多位dancers一起練習，一起表演！當中也學了很多東西！chriz, dennis, monkey, billy, joe, joey, noel, akiyo, momoko, boojae, fuzz, faruq, mimi, elaine, jackson, 還有我的隊友becky and von! we rock together yo...

奇妙，總是讓你的生活帶起了不少顏色，也閃亮了你的世界！
當你關起燈，你是完全看不到任何的東西！但過了不久，就會發現到黑暗裡還是會有光的！

我愛上了這種奇妙的東西～
就感覺到很溫暖～

天旋地轉～哈哈～
這兩張，我很喜歡！雖然不是很好，就不知為什麼感覺上很溫暖！
謝謝xander借我相機 =)

好了
不多話了～
真的很想睡覺，老娘今天很累了！晚安咯～
eh..wait..
i wanna post some photo took at genting highland
time to show off..haha..
showing my ketiak!! haha..its not smelly！ okay!!

chi von with me!! she so sexy in the pixie..

3 of us.. sexy von, act cute seven and handsome chriz..-.-

my homie!! both of us from the same HUTAN! haha.. miss akiyo

end up with a silly face!!
i bought the cap at genting too! and i love it so much!!
so i just wore it for whole day~ haha

life is full of joy..

=)

About the hottest

2011-03-24T07:42:00.000-07:00

i saw a video from youtube!! its a GUY!! they dance with heels and gorgeous outfit!! and they're HOT!!
please welcome...

KAZAKYthey got nice body shape!! good dance skill!! i think that's enough! they're hottest guy from ukraine!! Do you wonder who are they?
So, their names - Cyril, Stas, Arthur, and Oleg.

kazaky - LOVE
listen to kazaky music...love it and thumb up!!!

okay..peeps!!
going to bed soon..how about you guys??
i was so tired because of woke up late and rush to rehearsal without my breakfast and my make up too!! haha

i would like to write something before that!
Thx to my friends all the way from vietnam- thach son tung(kid nasty) , nguyen mau ha(small river) , phuc (sexz) , nghia(btwo) and do thanh tu(satan),last but not least RICHARD!! they're so lovely!! i'll never forget you guys! im still remember how i hancai with you guys at singapore and muar!!
halley crew,fire crew and cypher crew from vietnam with kenny kentz and VON at batu cave!

and i met a lot of bboy from all the world! INDO,SPORE,US,UK,AUS,JAPAN,KOREA,CHINA,THAI..etc
nice to meet you guys.. its a good moment with all.. =)

end up
with stupid face
haha
night...
xo

怎樣的人·····

2011-03-24T07:29:00.000-07:00

別再說廢話了

我已經無法原諒我自己的錯誤！

怎樣的人就過怎樣的生活！

現在我明白了許多！至少我要改！可不像你們，別再厚臉皮了！你們真的是在害人啊！你們明白嗎？把你們的嘴給關起來，好嗎？

我開始對你們很反感！真的有點想要吐的感覺！

最好別讓我看到你們出現在我面前對我說廢話，如果你不想我當眾ignore你！

對不起，只想放放鬆！

讓我鬆了這口氣吧！！

地球，已經病了！

2011-03-14T10:14:00.000-07:00

這段時間我在新加坡，因為都沒時間上網，所以都沒看到有關於日本的報導！

星期五從朋友那兒得知日本大地震，是8.9級地震！還不時有餘震！有不少人失踪，死亡和受傷！這真的是很恐怖！因為地震而引來的海嘯！這讓日本有更多的死傷～現在因為地震和海嘯，導致日本福岛第一核电站的1号机组在12号发生爆炸，3号机组也发生氢气爆炸，随后，2号机组反应堆冷却系统也停止运转，面临爆炸风险！福岛县政府确认，目前有22人受到核辐射污染！

地球已經變了！不～在這之前已經開始在變了

可以讓這地球更好嗎？

多少無辜的人失去了生命？

現在我們感覺不到它的變化！當它來的時候，你會覺得太遲了！

請愛惜地球！

請看

Massive Tsunami Engulfing Japan After M 8.9 Earthquake

xo..

you steal my heart away

2011-03-05T07:55:00.000-08:00

get back again..

throw the rubbish and get back with the fresh!

checking lookbook everyday..
i found a girl that so stylish and i love it so much..
whatever she wore like a princess from wonderland..
she is shanshan from osaka..

check out the way she is...
the way she mix and match totally look awesome~
all accessories so cute and nice..how we find it in malaysia?

anyway..
i would like to share some hot boys to you all...
i love their style too..
sometime
they can wear like a girl too..
they got their own style..

hey...did you guys know him?
famous and hawttttt...
ANDREJ PEJIC
i've post before
can u imagine..he pretty and the soul..i have no idea about that!!
just check by yourself~
he born this way..
sexy eyes and lips with blond long hair..
why he can so............... amazing

this is what he got...
i like you so much andrej!!!!

enjoy~

=)

想怎樣？

2011-03-05T01:05:00.000-08:00

title很兇對吧？
其實也沒怎樣！是在問自己要怎樣！

想隱瞞一世的東西還是會被發現的！紙還是包不住火！

現在可不用收起來了！被媽媽知道我有紋身了！簡單說句！完蛋了～
我知道她討厭，可是我偏要做！對，我是反叛，叛逆！在他們的心目中已經變了大壞人！其實說起來，你們從來不認識我！從來就不知道我是怎樣！說一你們一口咬定我就是反叛！說過了，我紋身並不是紋爽的～對我有意思我才紋！也讓我記住了我需要做些什麼！就算我和你們解釋，你們還是會嘲笑我！所以我要怎麼和你們解釋呢？

我說過了要賺錢養你們，我一定會做到！你們現在所看到的就只是廢人一個的我！我在後面多努力你們是發覺不到！不～應該是說你們都不會去了解！也許這兩個月剛過完年真的有點難找到表演還是教課！但不一定我真的是會伸手拿錢！我坦誠我是想媽媽借錢！但我一定會還～不管怎樣也好！我一定會還，因為我答應了你們，我一定要做到！

到現在你們還不明白我的處境！
是，我賺不到大錢！我一個月不能有穩定的收入！但你們想看看！我去打工，一個月就只有一千塊！可能在多一點！那有什麼出頭天呢？我堅持現在的舞蹈事業是我有我的苦衷！雖然並不能賺得很多錢！可是我贏得人生的一小段路！至少我的人生並不是在荒廢！你們說社會很黑暗！對啊！這我知道！錢很難賺，這就是你們所說的黑暗嗎？你們又真的嘗試過嗎？我知道社會很黑暗，在我身邊有上流社會，有白領，有藍領，有普通的，有富有的，有貧窮的，有和我一樣被夾在中間不知該怎麼辦的，還有許多！我不知道我看過的東西會多過你們嗎！但我至少也會明白人生的道理！有時候你們不講理！總是和我來硬的！你知道我是多怕嗎？可以說是恐懼感···你們說到我的人生不該去爭取，只要安安定定打工賺錢就好了！可是尊嚴呢？你們有時候都會說做工時被人欺負，在那邊投訴這邊不好那邊不好！可是碰到大的，卻不敢出聲！你要我這樣嗎？對不起，我做不到！

也許有一天我不會再跳舞了！你們問我是在什麼時候！我可以答你們，在我死了以後吧！好···不然這樣好了！我會去做工，可是你們還是不能阻止我跳舞，好嗎？

這樣你們會開心點嗎？

會安心點嗎？

可是我···應該不會覺得開心！

aaarrrggggggg
只想快點21~
哎呀～～～～

不管怎樣！在這里道歉～我不是有意要氣你的，媽媽～請你了解我好嗎？

50's and 60's

2011-02-26T08:41:00.000-08:00

hey

i'm totally insane with 50's and 60's
love the way they make up and dress up..

check out the fashion icon-TWIGGY

inspiration for 60's

colourful eye shadow with fake lashes

make you look like a doll
they will telling the truth from their eyes..=)

how about 50's
first why i'm love 50's make up because of marilyn monroe!
her gorgeous sexy eyes with the red lips..
sexy icon forever
wait..

dita von teese..
1950's burlesque pin up make up inspiration
the 1950’s, in it’s burlesque glory
it’s her makeup that transforms her.

christina aguilera
i love her make up as well..
she is so amazing in movie 'BURLESQUE' =)

i been try to make up by myself but failed!! because of my eyes?? too small or single eyelid??
hmmm...
anyway
i got my new hair.. full fringe with dark blue hair! so? say bye to pink and red hair!! its time to transform myself!! ya...i know some of u guys get shocked but i love this colour too!! hahaha~
remember to check out my new hair style at FB yaw..hehe
stylo mylo~~

=)

can't take my eyes off...

2011-02-24T08:31:00.000-08:00

..inspiration..

i got inspiration from vintage!
look at their dolly makeup and gorgeous outfit

TWIGGY
fashion icon
she is awesome always
"i used to be a thing, i'm a person now"
-Twiggy

MARILYN MONROE
blonde,sexy mole,sexy white dress with sexy smile and eyes!
" i'm pretty, but i'm not beautiful.
i sin but i'm not the devil.
i'm good but i'm not an angel"
-Marilyn Monroe

you may not forget about her!
she is audrey hepburn
“I never thought I’d land in pictures with a face like mine.”
– Audrey Hepburn

xoxo

born this way!

2011-02-24T06:38:00.000-08:00

hey everyone! sorry for late!

i got new hair cut but its look weird!! guys did u know ah wong阿旺? totally same..imagine his hair on my head with my fucking ugly face! damn....gone case!

anyway
let's born this way!!
i found my soul in dancing,how about you?

we dream
we enjoy every moments

yes,we think about our future,we need money,girls or boys,house,car,party,alcohol..we need everything but how about love,family,friends,peace? same goes to u.

life is short

appreciate it~

beauties of city

2011-02-15T10:05:00.000-08:00

yaw..wassup..

time to blogging~

seriously, bought a lot of cloths for chinese new year but....... some of THEM still in my wardrobe! it's ok, i still love them!

wears oversize with a pair of adidas.. love weird and vintage!! this is what we call 'STYLO' .. oh ya,this is my new shoes from adidas jeremy scott,bought from taiwan! that's funny, after ordered from my friends and my babe saw THIS already released at next day! i was like.. DUH!!!

love the colour and the big tongue~ jeremy scott STYLO!

so what we waiting for?
check it out the new style for cherrygun, she just amazing and wonder why a lot of lover!!
she beat us, non-stop staring her from top to bottom!!

some of the street peeps is crazy as well! their style,fashion sense,stylish...never try you never know,bet you love it once you try!
beauties of city with colour~

don't be lazy,move your mind girls! look at myself,although i'm not enough stylish and not cool at all,but i try to be!! get my own style as well~

what's next? hmm.. to be continue soon!

geeks,time to sleep! tomorrow night performing with my crew for astro! because you know im always overslept,better we sleep now and on alarm please~

i want to eat mc.d as my breakfast no matter how! teeheeee!!!!
okayyyy.. shut down and heading to my bed soon! ciaoo~~
=)

roll and roll

2011-02-14T08:34:00.000-08:00

aloha everyone..
my holiday is end now..go back to work and work hard for life!!

oops..say bye to valentines'
im all alone and staring to pc with a rolling mood..

get back to myself, i'm so tired because of sick! flu,cough,sore throat and gastric! FML.. you should know,this is killing me softly! i took my medicine in this few weeks,but seem like doesn't work at all!! burrr..

and another good news.. i'm quit SMOKING!!!!! yea maybe quite hard for me but i try,the result is...I CAN TAHAN, i didn't smoke for 5 days! keep going,keep going.. stop this bad habits and take care myself! better i quit, i shall love myself, right??

*roll and roll*

happy always with colourful..
say hi to vintage..=)

love vintage muchhh..=)

開心=不開心

2011-02-07T05:26:00.000-08:00

讓我想一想，大概每一年都這樣！接近每一年的新年，爸爸媽媽總是會吵架～小時候不明白，但長大了就會明白！
有些事情可以解決的！並不是一直地罵！我問你，你覺得一直罵有用嗎？？
為什麼總是要把我拖下水？明明就不幹我的事！就一定連我也罵！你是在玩些什麼？你要一家人不開心嗎？是，你是！你老是這樣！可不可以改一改啊？

媽，你只說老爸！那你自己呢？你有去想嗎？難道你自己就沒有錯嗎？你可不可以體諒一點啊？就不要吵吵鬧鬧的！不要牽連無辜的！

爸，為什麼那麼多年來了，你還是這樣？？可以改掉你的壞習慣嗎？難道一世人就要這樣嗎？如果你還是這樣，那請你不要把所有問題帶回家來！

你們兩老加起來已經一百歲了，為什你們的性格，想法還是這樣啊？可以往其他方面想一想嗎？要是你覺得會丟盡家里人的臉，那拜託！別在賭博了！賭，會賠上一切的！是真的！你們真的就不會聽嗎？可以為了家裡著想嗎？？

以前我並沒有想到可以成功的！可是我可以了！人到了一個時期就會改觀！經過了某些事，總是會有另外一個想法！

我知道，我就算和你們說，你們也不會聽！

那麼求求你們好了，讓我休息，讓我安安靜靜地過這幾天好嗎？

恭喜發財～

2011-02-03T10:58:00.000-08:00

新年快樂啊！

好快哦！一轉眼就到新年了～
哈哈～好像在唱歌一樣！-,-

說真的，感覺上好沒氣氛，是朋友們都不在嗎？
還是真的冷掉了？？

除夕，都在忙表演！在這之前也沒時間來更新，還好今天我記起來了，就是要更新我的部落格！

先來段開場白～
最近大家都還好嗎？

好久不見！:)

哈～先說一說我的近況！都不錯～就彩排，表演，彩排和表演！還有啦，晚上休息時當然是開開心心地relax嘛！都有和朋友喝酒，聊天，談笑風生！日子過得蠻充實的！雖然有一段日子沒回家···也發生了一些事情！可是影響不太大，因為新年就快到了！應該保持開開心心嗎！對不對？

好啦～時間不早了！
明天拜年去，開心啊！！！！！！哈哈～

恭喜發財啊！！
祝大家身體健康！今年行大運！天天好天！！！

perfect nightmare..

2011-01-21T09:30:00.000-08:00

時間過得真快～這樣又大概一個多月了！
有時候想起，真的覺得自己活該！也不知怎麼開口，很多時候心裡很不安！並不是做了傷天害理的事！只是覺得自己真的很不好！但是能怎樣，隨風而去吧！

已經過了的事情就不想再提，再提也沒用！就算說了出來也彌補不了我的心！就當是情緒化！情緒要來時誰也擋不了！很矛盾的是，我想找個人談天，談心！可是就是開不了口！就算說到也好，也不會一百巴仙說出來，人就是這樣，總會有隔膜！這就算了，還要搞得自己忐忑不安！你說，這是活該嗎？？

對！朋友說得對！不錯都已經錯了！現在知道後就要小心啦！＊我知道了！希望我做得到，為甚麼我這樣說！我不敢保證，知道我性格的人都應該懂吧！這就是弱點！我要改！＊

說到了弱點！逞強！結果跌得一身傷！笨人就是這樣！我是很想找一個可以帶著我走得更遠的男人！偏偏還未找到。其實心裡並不是像表面一樣那麼的堅強！嘗試過了，心裡就像炸彈一樣爆開！是那麼的傷！ps: 朋友告訴我！男人就像毒蛇一樣！一咬下去，毒就自然會攻擊你！那時候就會受傷！所以要提高警惕！她說得對！所以也要很小心得看和選！還有許多時間，慢慢來吧！

家人是我的最大弱點！也不知道何時才可以停止！有時候覺得他們煩！可是仔細想一想！他們也有他們的觀點！我們不明白，他們更不明白我們！溝通！對！缺少溝通就會這樣！我對自己說不可以放棄！但是我真的受不了！有時候，再想你們要我怎樣！這樣又不可以，那樣又不可以！到底要怎樣？我想走一走我要的路！我不想浪費這條路！我不想平平淡淡過日子，好像甚麼都做不了！至少我在這裡學到了許多！現在我成功了，叫我放棄，我真的捨不得！我現在想要透透氣！暫時不想面對你們！想讓我的頭腦refresh，不然我甚麼都做不到！說實在的，我怕了！我真的怕了！你們的每一句話都一直重複在我腦海里！沒有停止過！我對自己說，別想那麼多～但是我不可以！我不想面對！但最後還是要面對！我知道你們辛苦，我真的看到！！！我更辛苦，覺得自己很無能！我幫不了甚麼，我真的幫不了～每次都要自己偷偷地流淚，卻做不了甚麼！我對不起你們。我的心情很矛盾！我不知道要怎樣！請你們體諒我好嗎？
真的對不起～

也許我真的很沒用！給我時間好嗎？
please...
...
...
..

今天我超安靜的！平時嘰嘰雜雜的我！竟然超安靜！我只是心情不太好！與任何人無關！純粹在煩私人問題！對不起個位！一人心情不好就會影響大家！就讓我安靜一段日子吧！讓我完成我要做的東西，完成後心情就會好很多！

在這裡說聲對不起～
現在，矛盾的我！真的很想扁自己！

～完～

Happy go lucky

2011-01-10T08:32:00.000-08:00

你有想過嗎？

一個夢境可以讓人陶醉，也可以讓人瘋狂！

說真的！
我不想要有任何的感情！對我來說，現在的事業站在最高峰，那就要把握！並不是要說感情不重要！其實都一樣，只是我選擇了我要的！

成就，並不是在短時間裡做得到的！努力是一定有的！心呢？不管你怎樣，如果你沒把心給放上去！其實都一樣！都只有空框，但裡面什麼都沒有！

現在不管情況怎樣··還是要一樣地過！我還不確定選擇離開！可是心裡的答案，60%！但我不會放棄它，還是一樣會把它做得更好！

現在有時間就好好休息！把健康搞好！但偏偏就是有壞習慣！可以改的話就盡量改了吧！知道自己很少照顧身體！所以一直出毛病！別笑我！我真的是這樣！所以連我媽也不放心吧！也有可能因為這樣所以讓我搬出去吧～

有成就感就會感覺到一切！那一剎那就是最開心的時候！

看開一點···世界會更精彩···自然而然一切都會很順利！

=)

这人是怎样！

2011-01-05T10:11:00.000-08:00

够了！
烦够没？你是怎样？
我和你说！你却说我伤害了你！还要和我说一大堆废话！完全合不起来！
你，和我们并不是很熟，为什么我们放些什么总是有你的留言啊！完全不关你的事啊！干嘛要来留言！还要装熟！！

就是因为你这样！每个人都怕了你！不是他们的想法！因为完全不干你的事，你却要放些有的没的！

我不像其他人一样！不是因为我有负面的想法！而是我不喜欢你的做法～我好声好气地告诉你！你说我伤害了你，还说到自己有多可怜！然后越拉越远！有问题吗？先生，你的头脑有问题吗？我最讨厌这样的人！
说自己的生活！你告诉我搞屁啊！我不需要知道！也没兴趣知道！我也有我自己生活的方式！说到自己有多付出！先生，你明白付出这个字吗？你说帮别人看顾包包，从这里到槟城支持偶像！这就叫付出吗？你的人生就只有这些吗？难道你就没有其他了吗？你说你付出，但不需要回报！但至少偶像们可以看你一眼！哈？？这是什么？你要偶像怎样啊？？真搞不懂现在的人是怎样！！在外头有许多更付出的！比如辛辛苦苦做工，当兵的，还有许多！！你问别人啊，你这种叫付出了吗？我真的不明白！可能这对你来说是吧！

我没说些什么，他问我，他是否在侮辱着我！哈哈～真是的！越说越远！完全离道了！！还要另外加一些有的没的！

嗨～～现在的人啊！！

倒不如努力去做自己要做的，更有意义的不是更好吗！

算～
别怪我！我就是这样！我有我自己的想法···

不喜欢就走开啊！至少我做得到我要做的！

-Different-

2010-12-28T08:00:00.000-08:00

每个人都有唔同既世界··
我本人无反对个人既想法！每个人有佢既梦想，当然，如果你达到你既梦想，当然系最好啦！再接再厉，一定有结果嘎！好多人就系甘，后悔当初唔做自己想做既野！如果系甘，不如唔好后悔，继续做你既野啦！后悔都无用！都已经过佐咯···但系如果你没开始，不如趁早！梦想唔系梦，只要有恒心，铁柱磨成针！点解我要甘讲？曾经我都系一样，受唔起屋企人既说服，差少少就放弃啦！多得我身边既朋友，你地令我想通好多野～多谢你地！我相信，努力系唔会白费嘎！依家，我成功佐一步！有时，社会令你真系好辛苦！唔知要行边一步！无错！我都系！依家既我就系夹系中间，我想继续努力，但系面对既问题，有时真系唔知想点！见步行步啦···相信自己要做既野！讲番梦想，梦想系你自己把握嘎！做到好同埋唔好，唔可以怨别人，尽量做到最好啦！

好多人问我，拿佐冠军有咩感想！
我觉得，无咩感想···就算系冠军，我都只不过系一个普通人！就算好多人知道我哋系边个！但系，外头仲有好好好好好多人唔识得我哋系边鬼个！依家我想做我要做既！继续努力，enjoy自己要做既野！如果有一日我真系唔可以再跳舞，但系至少我唔会有遗憾！或者以后我既仔女问到我，我会同佢地讲！你妈曾经努力过！哈哈～哎呀！其实依家都好压力下嘎！复杂既野就算啦！enjoy个过程···会学到好多野嘎！！

依家我好enjoy我既生活！过佐个比赛之后！好好甘休息！虽然发生佐唔开心既事，但系日子都系要甘过嘎！不如依家就charge好电！之后再拼落去！！好好休息啦，阿七姐～～

讲下我既日子！虽然有D闷闷地！但系我都乐意既！依几日我都一直落KL！无野做吗！好耐无甘啦！又真系几好玩既！哈哈～

依几日去验眼···近视加深佐！！左眼三百都嚟啊！右眼二百五！！之前一百七十五啫！依家多做甘多！当然啦！两年无验啊！唔深都系假啦！哈哈～都系自己大头虾！算啦！换副眼镜嚟带下！old school既！我爱vintage!!哈哈～系啊！买佐少少既过年衫！大减价！每一摆大减价都无我份！因为未拿到钱！过分啊！我要买衫都唔得！希望快快拿到钱啦！过个肥年嘛！！

阿七响依度向大家讲声happy new year~2011就到啦！新既一年，新既开始！！
加油啦，大家！！
祝大家开开心心，健健康康，梦想成真啦！！

~xoxo~

latest look..

2010-12-23T06:11:00.000-08:00

i bet you guys know who are them..

FASHION BLOGGER...
RUMI NEELY

BRYANBOY

TAVI GEVINSON

HILARY TSUI

韩火火

这就是fashion的力量吧！

他们对衣着都有不同的味道，不同感觉！
哈～我也算是他们的粉丝啦！从他们身上学习吧！！

最近都一直在找着我要找的东西！气死人～就是偏偏没有我要的！还是到国外走走！也许找到呢！最近迷上高跟鞋或者wedges之类的！还想买一对来安慰自己，可是啊！跳舞时也会用到，wedges会很不方便！
喜欢这一个设计！有一种强悍却不少时尚的感觉！帅～
除了高跟鞋！当然不少了boots啊！靴子啊，比较适合我！酷的靴子更不能少！颓废般就是我的心头爱！每个人的口味不一样啦！搭配出自己的风格最重要！
哦～马来西亚就是少了一样！冬天！在国外大家都披着厚衣，其实在这里也可以的啊！

那不要大衣！外套也行啊！就是点缀那样吧！

每个人的风格都不一样！
只是看你如何搭配而已～最重要还是要穿的舒服吧！
个人比较喜欢怀旧，但不失酷和摇滚！哈～但最近的我都好简单！可能都在比赛所以没什么打扮了！！不行～感觉回来了！我感觉到我自己回来了！

加油吧～
向fashion blogger say hi!多多向他们学习！！

random title!!

2010-12-23T01:52:00.000-08:00

trying to make some cloths and DIY! quite hard,but learn and do it! i love some spike stuff! some rock and 80's! during the competition,my style more to funky and simple! wonder why i'm bought the cloths but never wear before! because i love their style! play style and make it special and represent yourself..

alright..

i need some boots and heels..especially black and cool enough!

i love funky and colourful! this spring/summer need some colourful on my top!! yes.. looking for pouch bag!! any nice one? i need colourful and sharp! haha..

usually i prefer to printed shirt/tee with a jeans! hmm..but more to vintage and 80's or 90's..here we go with shades!! i love this shades! started from lady gaga, its look cool and DAMN!!
- Design inspired by Mickey Mouse by Linda Farrow sunglasses

Zipper Edge Sunglasses by Linda Farrow x Alexander Wang

best shades forever! i love their design! nice one..

next one!! Lycra and Leather Leggings by Rick Owens! lets check it out! cool stuff..want to get them all!! arggg...

talking about myself again! i got my pinky hair! but it doesn't look like pink. maybe red mix some pink! after all the stress and nervous! time to release myself! next week,going to sabah again! show performance at white room i think! so what i've wear,hmm...whatever! just wear what i like! some of the dress look nice,ain't suitable for me! quite hard to get a nice dress for myself! hate it* roll eyes*

this is nice!! prefer to last one! ofcoz with my idol! mademoiselle yulia,her fashion inspiring me always!
looking for a dress,heels and a pair of vans! lol..

ho..ho..ho.. xmas is coming!! yahoo~ party at friend's house tomorrow..and new year eve is near!! me? growing up again! from 19 to 20 years old!! everything is going fast and coming fast! how u know the future right? enjoy ourself in 2010 and start a new life in 2011!! make a wish..ho..ho..ho...... XD

i want shopping!!!
bring me shopping please!!

lol..
ciao..see ya again~

最衰！！

2010-12-22T10:59:00.000-08:00

还想冬至该开开心心的，对吧？

妈妈还留了汤圆给我，还想弄热来吃！哪知道差一点就把厨房给烧了！就是衰在自己没看火啊！才会这样！我在房间就闻到了臭味，然后冲出厨房！吓着我了，整个厨房弥漫着烟和臭味！我赶快开完所有的窗口，让臭味和烟透出去！然后再看看那个煲！都黑了！焦了啦～这次心里想，惨了！该怎么办啊！妈妈一定会把我给打死吧！汤圆吃不到，还要烧焦了！所有汤圆都变黑色了啦！我还用了一个小时多的时间来清理干净！真是衰！要在哪儿找这种煲啊？快疯了！手也擦脱皮了！完全没力了！哎哟！怎么那么笨啊！！如果我再没察觉到！那就会着火了吧！这次真的被我自己的大意给弄惨了～

对不起啊妈妈！把你心爱的煲给弄焦了！对不起～我去买过给你啦！千万别生气！希望你没察觉到啦！-,-

updated..

2010-12-21T11:01:00.000-08:00

好久没上来了！
就让我写一写吧!

我很开心我们得到了冠军！努力总是要付出的！我付出了和家里人的感情，付出了自己的健康，付出了一切精神等等～
这冠军并不容易得到！大家好不容易辛辛苦苦练得要死要活！甚至要翻脸！到最后我们都做到了！虽然不是很理想，表演得不是很好，我们踏出了一步！可能是运气吧··谢谢上天！让我们成功了！
希望之后的路会更好！虽然我不知道接下来会是怎样！但真的很希望能保持这样！努力下去～

现在的我需要的是休息！

在星期二的早上，是我脾气坏吧！声量调大了，和他吵起来··当时候我真的不想去想太多！这就是为什么感到那么大反应！还对你大声！平静了那几个小时！你打来，我又在烦起来了！脾气又出来了！我只想告诉你，我并不想不陪你，时间真的配合不了！对不起，你每次来到都不能用足够的时间来陪你！我只想把我要做的事情做好！再加上我的时间不够用！配合不了你！我想解释给你听，可是我知道我的解释不能代表一切！过了就算吧！我希望你有什么事情都当天告诉我！别在隔了几天后才说！这样大家会加深彼此的误会！希望你明白！
好了，现在我想做我的事情！也该去烦我要做的事情！
对不起～～

before that! i want to shout!
i wonder why people like to blame..we are family in battleground! we love all the crew!
one thing dont talk about hip hop! and blame all the judges! respect all the dancer and judges!! dont spoiled malaysia dance scene! dont make it trouble again! bring the new blood ..

..make it better..
i'm not good enough! i want to improve myself too!!

next for waacking session! soon.............................

'Fun' shoot at tin dredge

2010-12-07T05:33:00.001-08:00

hmmm...
how was that??
tiring but enjoyed the shooting today~ yebbie...
although i'm still sick..but luckily not puke again!! haha..

first time shooting with julian and carol 'LOVELY HUSBAND AND WIFE'..and my lovely stylist and make up artist- Vicky hue aka auntie!!
i love the costume so much! so lady gaga and rihanna's style~ something sexy and 'SM'??!!! hahaha.. this is not the point...the fucking awesome thing is props made by julian!! can u imagine the mask,the gun in the movie 'HELLBOY' or 'AVP'!! fucking awesome wey!! how he made it?? i have no idea la..but will post up soon!! just check it out in my facebook!

okay..first ..we enjoyed our breakfast at RAWANG before we going off!! my hometown wey! hahaha..
is a long journey to tanjung tualang,PERAK!
places is damn nice!! nice view,nice kampung! don't know how many kampung we passed finally we arrived our venue for shoot today! a tin dredge and the only one! damn huge..i wondering how they control everything!! anyway..nice place for shooting!!

something funny during shooting...almost fainted because of the mask!! have to cover the face,hard to breathing siaa..haha..but i'm okay!! i still ALIVE!! and i bought GARDENIA original classic ROTI from rawang to there!! why?? because im always hungry!! i cant stop eat and eat! there a nothing when break..so..ofcoz enjoyed my roti la!! hmm..hmmm..yummy!! dont forget..i still sick..=(

this shooting took around 4 or 5 hours..but we enjoyed although all is tiring already!

big thx to julian and carol..nice to meet u guys and thx for teaching me how to pose~ lol..
haha..i told u!! im wack siaa...-,-

and big thx to vicky hue aka auntie!! she so focus when she make up for me!!
nice outfit! nice make up! dont make me fall in love for u! thx to her and find the all nice outfit for me~~ lol...

YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME!!

=)

最糟糕的日子

2010-12-05T21:49:00.000-08:00

在这一个星期里，是我最难受，最难过的日子！
有时候我自己也接受不了！但事实摆在眼前，难道你还不去理解，去解决吗？
可以说，我做的一切是为我自己！让我过得更好，但在这之前，我会很辛苦！对～我感受到了！真的很辛苦！是我身体一直都那么的差！现在终于知道了！是那么的辛苦啊！

闭起眼睛都会想起一切！
就像失去了最亲的人那样！那么的痛！我能怎样？？我只能这样眼睁睁看着所有都过去！

还是说会现在吧！
过新的开始！
一切都变得不一样了！！

人也生病了！真惨啊～～

=(

希望快点恢复起来吧！

永远的回忆～

2010-11-28T10:00:00.000-08:00

永远记得这个笨蛋-lady seven

我是最愚蠢的！

现在，头脑超烦！比赛要到了····人已经是完全不受控制了！现在更别说！我真怕自己会做出自己不想做的事！压力吧！全都来了！
我明白了一切！事实就是这样！改变不了就改变不了！唯有改写一切！努力做到我能做的！
人就是要面对事实！然后做得更好！

人生有多少十年??

别浪费时间，也别想太多！做现在该做的！我要把明天变得更美好！

突然想到了纹身，好想去纹身！就是要留住记忆···不让它消失！对不起家人，亲朋戚友，朋友们！我是不会停止刺青的！要让它成为回忆里的一切～

真的对不起～

想要······美好的！

2010-11-25T10:42:00.000-08:00

最近大家都知道朝鲜与南韩之间的战争吧？
朝鮮周二（23日）下午向與韓國交界的延坪島附近發射數十枚海岸炮炮彈。

为什么会这样？？
世界和平？？地球已经在变化了，为什么人类还要这样？

无辜的人们
难道他们都没想到无辜的人吗？
无助的人，眼睁睁看到自己的地方被炸毁，失去了身边的一切！

而你们呢？只为了自己的利益！伤害别人你们觉得开心吗？
互打，那是你们最想的吗？

祈求上天保佑，让一切恢复平静···为死伤者祈祷！！

和平，你们可以做到吗？？

如果真的发生些什么事也好！
我最想要和家人在一起，和他们拥抱！但我不甘心，所以现在我要做的更好！尽我所能做得最好！遗憾是有的，但至少我能做到我要的！最重要是家人···不管怎样，他们都会在你身边！他们是我最亲的！我也不会想要辜负他们！虽然他们不喜欢现在的我，但我要用时间来证明一切！
说到了这些，突然觉得心酸！
我想要他们的鼓励··
我想要他们的拥抱··

ps:我在你们的心里也许不是乖孩子，我明白！我也觉得自己没有用···虽然我还未做到！我也想在最短的时间里证明给你们看！也许你们也不会看我一眼，但至少你们听到后，可能会改变想法！我知道自己在做些什么！不管怎样也好！还是想要和你们度过日子！你们还是永远第一！不会是第二！

我希望你们出现在我比赛的那一天···如果你们不想或者不能也没关系！至少我让你们知道，我和队友们很辛苦地进到了决赛！让我再闯下去···

好了不说了！

我爱你们，也爱身边的一切！珍惜眼前的，世界会更美好～

Fall / Winter 2010

2010-11-17T09:34:00.000-08:00

LOUIS VUITTON..
fall/winter 2010 campaign!
lets check it..
photo by steven meisel..
model:Christy Turlington,Natalia Vodianova,Karen Elson

beside that!! my favorite asia model-DU JUAN 杜鹃
she got amazing face!! i love her eyes so much!!!! =)
inspiring me..hahahah...-,- she got soul....

more coming soon....

ciao~

Super girl

2010-11-17T05:43:00.000-08:00

changed everything...
include myself! i got my style...and that's me! i like to do something stupid and crazy! i got a spider tummy,lol..hahaha!! me addicted to dancing,eat,vintage,fashion,tattoo..but i only got 2 on my back!! don't worried!! time still young,im just only 19!! i still can do what i want to do!! haha..

people said: HEY YOU..are you phang(my sure name)?
me: ya..
people said: WOW..you look different!! more pretty thn before!!
me: HALO. i got my make up,school can't make up what!! ofcoz it's look different!
people said: ya!! haha..but still different!!
me: -,-..ok

i know i'm not!!
but imma fancy,fashionable girl!! i know how to make myself look more confidence,more different -,-
girl is always dress up herself!! me too!!

yeah..that's me!!

haha...look big!! SHIT!!! that's fake!! LOL...

by the way

yaw don't even know what we tired for...
not only you!! we all tired too!! if u more tiring thn us, alrite..you win! because you never understanding each other,u always care about urself! can u relax urself? and you are the king,u want everyone follow ur game? my bad,i won't step ya game up! i'm tired to feel that,to follow what you need! i got my soul.. did u feel us? NO!!
lazy now..im gonna do what i want to do! i want my soul back to me! you know im stuck now!! my level never improve since last year! that's what i mad for!! HIT that!

ciao...

shout what i want!

tomorrow is a nice day!!

..FML..

Ladies!

2010-11-16T10:05:00.000-08:00

hey..i'm back! seem like busy huh! damn right! rehearsal for show and start training for final battleground 2010! what a busy day~ lol

can you feel the cold tonight! ya..i feel it!! NO is everyday!! weather is cold and keep raining seem last week! can you feel that???

okay..let we check it out!
inspiring fall/winter 2010

i wish i could wear like this!! =)

remember kids memory? we got bike!! haha..
i got BMX!!! but already broke..=(
now
i need a bike for myself!!! lol
damn yeng la wey!!
i want to get one!!

wooohoooo.....

shout out ...wow!!

alright!! i'll see you soon!! ciao now...

=)

当你····以前的故事！

2010-11-12T08:58:00.000-08:00

当你有一天老了，你会是怎样的吗？

妈妈
她把我们带到世界来
她教会了我很多事情···
在我小的时候，总是跟随她到巴刹选今天要煮的菜~
当我顽皮的时候，总会拿藤条打我，教训我！
而婆婆就会在旁边用福建话说：别打了，她还小啊！
妈妈就会不停地说该打！对，有时候她打得对！不打不长进！不骂不会听！
不知你们小时候都是这样的吗？
其实打在我们身上，痛在她心里！
也许她也有她的苦衷～
我们不明白的总会想为什么妈妈打我啊！
因为我们还小！
到有一天，我看到妈妈的白头发一天比一天多！时间过得很快，像火箭般发射出去后，不会回头！在这之前，我都会帮妈妈拔白头发，妈妈都爱漂亮，每次要出门都会打扮！以前都由妈妈帮我打扮，现在长大了，独立了！什么事都想自己来！妈妈又在心痛一次，她怕我们在外面碰到一身灰！所以都不停唠叨，而我们觉得她好烦！但想清楚，她是为你好！现在想一想回，好久都没帮妈妈拔白头发了！最近看到她的白头发真的很多了！人也苍老了！皮肤也没那么光泽！就知道岁月催人！真的过得很快！
当你有没有注意到，妈妈最近看报纸眼睛都要挤在一起看，报纸也拉远来看！老花一天比一天严重····有没有想到我们都很少去关心她··有些人可能回到家已经是晚上了，上了年纪的人都会早睡吧！因为时间的关系拉远了彼此的距离！有哪一天真的是完全呆在家，和他们谈天，和他们一起旅行！说真的，我很怀恋这种感觉！好久都没和他们旅行了！
刚读了一个稿，题目是妈妈的老花变深了！这让我感受到一种心酸的感觉！也许我最近都没和他们谈天了····一个礼拜也只见面几次而已！虽然住在一起，可是都没什么沟通！怎么可以这样呢？？
当你有了孩子，也许你的孩子就像你一样！而你就会经历他们的生活！到时候就明白吧！
说真的，很想念妈妈煮的菜！很想念阿麽！很想念过去的日子！当我走过那段曾经去过的地方，总有一种莫名其妙的感觉！
时间过得很快，在这些地方都是我童年的回忆！想回以前下雨天在阿麽家和姐姐们折了纸船到阿麽家前的河流放船！下午天气热就和姐姐弟弟到外头买冰淇淋吃！还记得以前的冰淇淋就像冰条！还有汽水口味！在不然就是ABC CENDOL，那时才五十仙！现在那里找呢？？还有，印度uncle每天都骑着脚车卖面包！！以前幼稚园放学后都是回阿麽家，阿麽就会煲粥给我吃！配咸菜，和炸香肠！以前要买包装的都很贵！阿麽都是散买的！都会十条那样！然后自己吃一两条，其余的都给我！那时真的很开心！因为阿麽都很疼我！
以前一家人都会在星期日去阿麽家！自从阿麽去世后，我们都很少回阿麽家了！只是最近，外公骑摩多跌倒！还要是两次！我看到他的伤！我很想哭出来！外公啊！为什麽那么不小心啊！我知道他一个人在家真的很孤单！自从外婆去世后，他都一个人在家！舅舅们有时都不在家！我可以感受到他的孤寂！
我都明白你们的心情！
也许我老了，也会有这样的一天！

也许有一天，爸爸妈妈也会这样！现在姐姐都不在这边！剩下我和弟弟！我几乎每天向外跑！弟弟读书回来就去打工！妈妈放工后就是一个人在家！我也感受到了！所以自己也很矛盾！很想一整天呆在家，和他们一起吃晚餐！所以我不是个乖孩子！也许我做不到你们所要的！但我尽我的能力吧！

突然心血来潮写起这些！害我想回好多回忆！尝试记回过去的一切，让我有种安慰！

大家～
多陪陪，关心你们的家人和身边的一切吧！

..CIAO..

BADDEST THINGY

2010-11-11T07:04:00.000-08:00

sorry for stop blogging for while..

because busy for competition...and finally we made it to final!! WE ARE IN TOP4!!
so,what else we can do?train hard,back to dark and hell!
why i say so? u know what?! everyday training and keep choreo the step,almost finish our brain juice!! so hard to get into final!! ofcause we need fight again!! fight fight fight!! fight for everything!!

alrite..i'm gonna post my thingy again!
where the wild things are
here we go again...
im addicted to high heels! girl always ON for heels!
why? check it out!!
high...to the sky!!

nina ricci heels..
from givenchy
from jill sander

Alexander McQueen..my favorite!!!!
so..why we love HEELS??!!!

continue with other topic..is winter time! but malaysia weather same in 365days! hot..and i get sick already!! fever,flu and sore throat! do take care yourself please!
bring you all to this!
be cool,cold and chic~

imagine wear like that in malaysia! people staring you from top to bottom! haha..they feel weird!!lol...

topshop..topshop!! i wan to go and check the new arrivals!!
i love kate moss..she so VOGUE!!!
my favorite model-KATE MOSS
kate moss in TOPSHOP

ANOTHER SUPERMODEL
agyness deyn..
amazing eyes! this girl got style and she hot!!
she in skinhead!! botak more familiar!! haha..love her short hair! still thinking want to be like this or not!! try some new fresh!! dope right??
lol

enough for today...
tomorrow continue blogging!!
ya..tomorrow want to go chatime in pavillion!! anyone ON? haha..already wait in one month!! no people bring me go!! nevermind..go by mysef! although my knee still havent recover yet!!
haha...this call padan muka!! lol...
alrite cya!!

ciao~~

=)

生病记～

2010-11-10T22:27:00.000-08:00

挨过了那三天，终于生病了！
从semi final3开始！就觉得自己有点不舒服了！因为天气忽冷忽热！我该怎么保护自己啊？？
而且又冷到！可以说是感冒了吧！我就说了！
终于生病了啊！！
做什么事都不爽！
我最讨厌喉咙痛，发烧和伤风！这三个一来就不是好事！害我整身都在痛！真是TMD！！
最不小心还是弄到膝盖！还好今天走路没那么痛了！可是肿了一块！感觉真的很奇怪！算了！看了医生就没什么事了吧！！

最好不过我的感冒可以快一点痊愈！！很讨厌生病啊！！讨厌吃药啊！！
还是休息好了！！
喝多点水吧！
朋友们，照顾自己的身体啊！最近天气不怎么好啊！！！

bye...dude!! take care...=)

one last stop!

2010-11-06T08:42:00.000-07:00

先来update比赛的情况！
第一天，别说，每个人都会紧张～更不想出错！所以紧张是一定有的！当然我们吸引到了评审们的眼睛！这就是他们想要的！用舞蹈来吸引大家！的确有点难度，因为要顾着舞蹈那一方面，也要顾着所有的flow！蛮有挑战性的！第一天的表现，个人觉得还可以做得更好！可是也算不错了！谢谢评审的评语！这让我们进步不少！谢谢～

第二天，也不知道是太累了还是怎样！完全感觉不到那种那个气氛！只是想要坐着休息！是我们在前一天练得太累了吗？那种四肢无力的感觉侵入我的身体！这样也会影响到表现的啊！评审在今天说道，我们的表演并没有之前那么精彩了！也缺少了那种感觉！吸引不到其中一位评审的眼睛！这让他有点失望！他要我们带跳舞的味道，跳舞的感觉！完全是在享受的舞蹈！可是在今天我们并没有做到！失望ing～～在宣布成绩是，真的是很紧张！大家觉得呢？？？

是～
我们成功进到了下一场！
可是别那么开心！怎样也要度过明天才开心的了！不管怎样！希望可以呈现到最好的给大家！所以我们必须要保持有精神的状态！所以今天也早休息些！明天希望可以给到另外一种感觉！做到最好就对了！

ps：还没比赛已经弄伤这里那里！真的不像是女生般那么的乖，斯文！哈～我更别说了！短发就是这样！！lol

突然好怀念长发的我！！如果留到现在！一定会不错的！因为本人没试过留长发～哈哈！大家猜看！会是什么？？一定很搞笑的吧！！哈哈哈～在我的fb里就有长发照！是朋友tagged的啊！大家去看看吧！！哈哈哈～

好啦！真的很累了！大家要等我啊！很快会回来继续blogging！！！

晚安！

-xoxo-

a day before nervous..

2010-11-04T09:33:00.000-07:00

now is..2:00am

在比赛之前的感觉就会是睡不着！很害怕自己的表现不好··
还未练习呢！哈～刚收拾好包包，正要煮面吃呢！

想休息的感觉又来了！

真的有那么累吗？没骗你的！是真的很累！再想到比赛，更死吧！我觉得啊，我会在比赛心脏病发作吧！快紧张得要命！手脚就不听使唤！拼命地在抖着！

希望自己做得更好吧！加油吧！阿七！

2:10am

享用我的快熟面吧！吃完了就练一下···然后就休息啦！稍后五点半就要醒了！哎呀～怎么时间不够多呢？？？？

2:22am

还正看着影片！放松自己····可是头脑还在想怎么还不练习啊你！-,-''
还有，肚子胀胀的！是吃太多了吧？还是？？？也不知道···想太多也没用！哈哈～

2:38am

哈～休息够了啦！是时候动了～在这一段时间里，因为无聊而记起来的！蛮有意思的吗～好～各位参赛者朋友们加油啦～

明天见～
=）

生活-时间

2010-10-29T07:19:00.000-07:00

生活过得好快！一针一秒就甘过佐！
依几日多的好充实，可能有野做呱！唔知～自己觉得过到好充实，但系好攰！好想休息然后行下街，放松下自己！过得甘逼，做人都唔开心啦！

寻日帮朋友庆祝生日！讲好我系个条出计仔既人！点都要早D到既!点知有show做！害我差D迟到啊！不过好彩！仲有班废柴帮我啊！！！多谢！shit!佢地唔识听嘎！terima kasih banyak banyak kepada kawanku!! TK,FUAD,ADAM···paling penting JA! haha..terkorban banyak la tu! ofcoz tu si VON! happy birthday ..sebelum birthday masih nak emo2 lagi! haha..akhirnya,tu la suprise! lagipon,abg JOE! happy birthday too!

好啦！最近睇佐一套电影！叫做“TAKERS”！！唔错啊！真系好好睇啊！尤其系动作既部分！当然，边道会错过靓仔啦！hayden christensen！可以讲系美男啊！系依部电影佢虽然早死但系佢既戏份都有好多下嘎！仲有chris brown, T.I, paul walker..等等！
大家记得要睇啊！=)

几快又要过完十月啦！十一月一到，就会好忙啦！都好既，唔系既话闭关系屋企都会闷死啦！又可以赚钱喔！唔爽咩？（其实我都唔想噶！钱难搵啊！）
下个月又要俾更多钱！为左我既Blackberry！犯贱啦我！无钱学人fing黎做乜野！！LOL..

临睡前来一张相先！

带著副眼镜有型D!!!系话？？哈哈哈～
最近我最爱既墨镜,带D旧风味，vintage甘既feel!系我最中意！！

早抖啦～～～啦～～啦～～～

xoxo

BADDEST again!!!

2010-10-25T07:35:00.000-07:00

lick it babe!!

fucking addicted to tattoo!
but sorry...i have no tattoo on my hand,my leg,my back..
but i got it too!!! post b4! i think u guys know ..
some of the pixies!! HOT

they so hot for me!

ink is art~~i love INK!

here is some of the pixies found it from net!
check it out!

she got beautiful eyes~
hot snap and pixies...
i love the way she mix and match!

love it...
i love her shoes..did u guys saw it?
nice jumpsuit! she so amazing!
punch my eyes..this is so nice wey! i will wear it in msia!
2 diff style and they look good..i love the left one! nice shirt!
feel like want to get one!

and now with the cool stuff..this is the most longer post in my blog!! haha..
because all is pixies..haha..

i love this spec much!! cool and best! LOL..
i wonder if i wear it..can i saw everything or just like a toy?
it's ok..still love it! =P

aite...end of this ...
going to sleep soon...
pecae yaw..=)

lifestyle

2010-10-25T07:11:00.000-07:00

so guess?
haha..get my new phone d! BLACKBERRY.finally! promise to my friends from few months ago want to get BB..now only get it! trouble is come for me now! i duno how to use BB..WTF! and now want to go digi centre change my maxis to digi! because digi is more cheaper! haha..now i know imma stupid dum dum! my mum scolding me because i bought new phone! oopss..sorry la! i really want to get it from long time ago!

so...
this is lifestyle?
no phone no life!

i think so

for me..

no food no life

haha...i like to eat but my stomach not so good,always sick! hate u..

actually no everything no life! like family,friends....etc

so
appreciate everything ..

xoxo

short story~~~~

2010-10-23T14:32:00.000-07:00

ERMMMM...

stop bogging few days ago because of show ..
and now..
time to blogging!
SHORT STORY FOR TODAY..
going to bukit jalil for skate competition!
FML..
me and von panjat bukit sampai atas for watching skate competition..u know what..fucking hot today! sweating like hell after PANJAT BUKIT! siap we reach to the top,have no any food store or restaurant at there,so we need to climb back and having our BRUNCH..kelakar right? of cause sweating again!
i'm fuckng pek cek because of sweating and smelly! luckily fuad coming for skate comp ,if not we need to panjat bukit lagi! night got show some more,that's why i don't like this wey! YUP,one more thing...PMS! I HATE PMS...why don't you come at last week!! you visit me this few days! i really don't like it! fucka ducka PMS! want to congratz to my friends awhile! USHER .congratz to you for getting first place! adam and azreen tooo=)
with the dark night!
HENNESSY ARTISTRY AT MIECC..
alot peoples dou!!!! im arrive at 830pm..but have to wait till 9pm...the others reach at 10pm!!so me and koko wait till fat mou!
having fun with the dancers,they so dope and sexy!!! haha...but we never talk! like kayu with kayu! but it's ok!
dope events..alot peoples celebrate it! of cause we have artist performance...mizz nina,da mouth...etc! but we still on ..enjoy the party time...

NOW...
my ankle is damn pain!!because of high heels..wearing heels for dancing! ENJOY but too pain..asyik2 nak mcm ni!

alright...time to bed..i wan my bed and zhu zhu!!! miss my home...lol...nevermind,tomorrow going to sunway for my BB...yeah...yahooo~ happy-ing!!!!!!! aafter i get it..first BBM...hahaha...addicted to it! LOL...

so cya tomorrow...good night everyone!

photography..

2010-10-18T07:00:00.000-07:00

最近爱上了photography，艺术性的～

在忙的时间里，还是会抽出一小段的时间来看看！
不多说，来看看别人的杰作吧！

章鱼保罗出名了，美女都爱上他了！哈～

颓废，我喜欢～

sweet and love...=)

she is so glamorous...

power of fashion..

vintage rock......

新和久，个人比较喜欢怀旧风～

好吧～
明天再接下去吧！
各位晚安了～
good night to all of my friends...=)

A HAPPY DAY OF ME

2010-10-17T10:05:00.000-07:00

之前的post比较伤感

但在同一时间想要分享‘我开心的一天’

saturday
这一天充满阳光气息，虽然带着疲惫的身子，但还是可以感觉到那股气息·
地点是在putrajaya某个地方
在这一区，并没有许多人，不像城市般繁忙，人山人海
由于地点比较偏辟所以不见得有许多人在这里出没
更别说是熟人
所以很放心··
很开心可以认识到新朋友，看来我的圈子里都快爆满了
来这里尬的人都不是我们身边朋友认识的
和他们沟通了，觉得他们蛮友好的，也很风趣！爱说话，爱搭讪是他们最爱的，也许他们会觉得奇怪，那么大的场地怎么会出现了两位女生，而且素未谋面，哈～
也很快和大家混熟了，该感谢带我们接触这种场面的人！

到了夜晚，摇滚之夜
爱上夜晚的我，当然是享受着那种感觉啊！
在夜晚里，当然喜欢看见灯光在表演那样般闪烁着
这就该选在城市里
走在街道上，听着最爱的摇滚乐，总是有种说不出口的感觉
也许每个人的口味不一样吧··
偏偏我就是特爱这种怪感觉
这就是为什么当上了夜猫子，夜夜不想归家···
在这种时候，和朋友嘻嘻哈哈，走过每个街道，穿梭在人群中，看着漂亮的灯光，不管多不开心也好，心情总会平静许多

sunday
充满食物的一天
怎么说呢？
从下午的烧烤乐，到晚餐的鱼
这可让我饱足两天，分量太多了
吃得都快要吐出来
但我满足，今天也算是另外一种快感
也许有些人说是折磨自己的肠胃，但吃到美食，那种感觉是不会忘记的！
好久没这样了，看来是时候减肥了，肚子快涨得走不了！这还得了吗？？
晚上时分，还和朋友到mamak
点了块印度沙律煎饼(roti salad)
又再享受食物了
一整天被食物引诱着，快受不了了，哈～
明天该少吃了，得好好照顾自己的身材，走样就完蛋了啊～
我还要表演的吧····

喜怒哀乐
每个人都有的吧！
顺其自然吧
过得开心就好了～～

end with love..peace out~

反复的心情～

2010-10-17T08:40:00.000-07:00

每个人都有心情不定的时候！偏偏就要在最忙的时期里碰上心情不定，情绪化！本人最近心情不是很好，也不知道为了些什么！有时候觉得这样很幼稚！很想把自己隔在一边！让自己冷静下来！

但有些时候～

开心总有的····

表演让自己暂时忘了烦恼，开开心心，享受在舞台上表演的机会···
对···
学习放开是最好的，不管怎样逼自己，甚至这样会更糟糕

学习着···
学习着放开自己，让自己飞得更高更远，让自己越战越勇，让自己活得更好，让自己更成熟，让自己学的更多···

···反复的心情···

让它而去吧～

心情很烦

2010-10-14T10:39:00.000-07:00

没什么心情啊！最近怎么了？？一直都很烦····具体来说，就是自己想太多！每个人都只有一个头脑！为什么我还要想那么多啊！令到自己心烦气躁！这样对自己好吗？别人叫你不要烦了，偏偏你就是要去想那么多！seven啊seven!是怎么了啦？？？

比赛，表演，钱，感情，想到都头痛了！！明天要去买药吃，补一补我的脑～

刚和朋友出来谈天！说真的！我腻了～对这种世界腻了！很想让自己有另外一种感觉，去享受我的生活！可是现在是过渡期···········！是时候停了，别再玩了啦··seven！可是我没有啊？？现在会怕了吧！好想找一个人谈一谈！看来，暂时性是没有的！

好想到外面透透气···享受大自然！让自己感觉清静一点！头痛啊！

有时候我很想哭！我看到失败的自己，也摇起头来！对着镜子说···为什么你那么没用！！别人问我台上的自信从哪来的？我说：“舞蹈让我有自信”！可是下了舞台，自信也会跟着消失！辛苦哪有人知道呢？我一直逼自己做得更好！可是有时候，我真的没兴趣想要做，偏偏就是一定要做！唯有硬着头皮上！有时候听到家里人对我放话，我好想把自己隐藏起来！我不想做，就别逼我！好吗? 在外面已经有许多事要烦，回到家想清静一点，也不行吗？？？

脸上常带笑容，背后的秘密哪人知啊！往往表面上都是在骗人的！

每个人都很累了！我也没有心情想要开玩笑！就算有多好笑的事情，我也不觉得好笑吧？这就是心情的影响！也许有一天，我成功了！那我就真的会笑，还是发自内心地笑出来！哈～每个人都会这样吧！

我希望明天是一个晴朗天！

睡一觉，把所有不开心都给收起来！

晚安～ =)

short update~

2010-10-13T10:34:00.000-07:00

没什么！就今天发了小脾气！可能自己最近的心情都不稳定吧！也不知道自己在想些什么，你说得对，你不知道我在想些什么！连我自己也不知道，更何况是你！每个人都有不一样的心情和想法，总是会突然间地变化！前一阵子，总是再想着很多事情！到今天还是一样！担心这个，担心那个！想要给自己机会休息，可是就是做不了！为什么？为什么会变得这样？？

今天排了第三个舞蹈！算是不错了！还要在改变！每个人要求都是完美的，虽然稍微有点不整齐，一步一步来，一定可以做到的！

接下来，希望可以得到不少的表演！可以说是，等钱用吧！！最近也一直省吃，省买了！还是很难存到啊！怎么办啊！由谁来救救我啊！

我很累啊！不是说很累想睡觉！是对现在的路很累···要怎么走啊！很难啊！！！

haih..hope everything will be fine! so bored .....

baddest female is back!

2010-10-12T10:20:00.000-07:00

alright..back to last weekends!
saturday went to ZOUK for freestyle show performing with vicky,kellyn and coco! good experience and nice to know you guys! after show performance ,went to NZ garden supper with von,azreen and zari! finish supper and going snooker with them too! please NOTE! lady seven really wack in SNOOKER!! u guys just watch it..what i've done!!
WACK LADY SEVEN (must watch)

sunday..performance for 8tv showdown street festival! i wish i could sleep at there because so fucking tired! time pass time! hmmm...around 10hours at pyramid! just wait until crew performance start! penat gile dowh! finish show,we rush for saiful's wedding at mont kiara! DOPE wedding...heart it! and congratulation!! again..supper and beer with von,zari and tk! BEER..i love beer! make me like crazy! crazy for someone! miss him suddenly! not to tell u guys!! just guess..=)

our friend in hospital now,waiting operate ...hope he will be fine!

NEXT!!
my target...blackberry but fashion is more important for me! like my life...

yeppie, time for sleep! sleep with vogue beats and old school beats~
they're look amazing rite? power of art!! huhu~~

enjoy ya..bye....

about feeling

2010-10-06T11:22:00.000-07:00

feel like shit from just now untill now..finally end of all,but i'm not feel better at all! i wonder why he know that..but it's doesn't matter anymore and just only a small problem, i wonder why i'm sad?! make every effort to tell myself okay,but lying to myself! i knew that thing,and i know you care about that,but you said okay! just let it be! for sure i won't be happy when i knew that! my bad =(

just want to shout at here,know what! first time feel like want to run and hiding myself..like just now going to yamcha session,i want to ciao when i heard that! first word in mind is shame~ shame to myself and hate myself! beside that,i start to bite my nails when i feel *shit*! haha..try to keep it long but now tak jadi dah! i'm not angry,just shock and he keep asking me the same topics...so i keep quiet and no expression! but my heart is numb and hurt because our relationship like piece of glasses separated between us,and may be forever or a short period! but how do you know? maybe i think too much!

i wish i can leave malaysia as soon as possible! why?? because of many things..for my future,for my family,for my friends,for myself! some of personal reason! i can't wrote too much..this is the bad thing!! want to keep something for myself! mysterious?? nah......lazy to wrote,cheh..POYO!!! sometime i hate here,sometime i love here! haha..confuse right? but this is my blog,sure need to update my post right! i've no choices! okay...come back for the reason leaving malaysia! sorry..just want to wrote in mandarin..没有特别的！只是想出去散心，学更多的东西！人就是这样，心情不好就吵着要出去～心情好就当着没事发生！我也是同一类！可能我现在心情不怎么好所以就这样想了！其实我心里想了很久，要是我能够出国那有多好啊！只是碍于家里人吧！说过了，这条路就是这样！有许多人不认同的，所以他们也不认同你的想法和做法！就算解释多番还是一样‘得个桔’！！为什么好难说服啊？是我嘴巴太懒了吧，而且又爱开玩笑，所以大家都认为想法还很幼稚！这我不知道，但是我会看人吧，意思是与不同的人，说话方式就不一样！朋友们就开玩笑些，要我认真起来，是可以的！在我认真的时候，可能你会发觉到不一样了！每个人都是样的吧？！

怎么说了，心情稍微低落了！事情过了，就让它随风而去吧···因为再怎样说也好，也无法拉回来！但我会封闭一阵子吧！怎么说心情也不会好过···

就这样，自然而然就会飘走了～

一切听天由命吧！顺其自然就好了···

只是想写一写，没其他意思！当时发泄吧！
ps:发觉到最近很爱哭，变了爱哭鬼！不管周围的事，歌，戏的剧情，还是想象的东西！只要伤心，感动，开心，失落都会哭～那就让我哭吧！哭了心情会好一点！但别浪费自己的眼泪！女生要把自己做得更好！！眼泪还是省一省···值得的事，就值得你哭！坚强·····
be strong and believe yourself!

-,-

镜头下的我～

2010-10-05T08:27:00.000-07:00

说过了！我不会摆姿势，我还很生硬吧！真的有些难度啊，在镜头下的我可以做出任何东西！尤其是搞笑的！要我摆出感觉来！还真难～

拍了一辑照片～自己觉得怎么感觉怪怪啊！觉得自己好像一只没有灵魂躯壳一样！就是很生硬就对了啦！先让你们看一看吧！

by sum yee mok..

by jayy stan~

暂且就放出这几张吧！
期待其他的～因为还未edit好吧！等着吧！！

临睡前，来一个愿望！
我要存钱买电话，之后就需要用好多钱了！所以一定要趁现在存钱买电话啊！说得有些奇怪，下一次再解释吧！好想睡了啦～

晚安啊～

=)

random MESC 2010

2010-10-05T06:57:00.000-07:00

i went to mont kiara last saturday and sunday for MALAYSIA EXTREME SPORT CHAMPION 2010.. going wit azreen,tk and von! and meet up our poyo BRO-fuad and ja!! sorry about that,events was great and fun,but i can't enjoy it because i'm still confusing with myself and abit moody! it's was great...still can enjoy abit!

early morning take train to sg.buloh meet up azreen and tk then pick up von at kl sentral! what a busy day! haha..we though we late because we arrive around 11am..but the events start around 1 or 2pm!! guess..what we doing there? hahaha...blow water with von and camwhore!!
this is pixies~

the only 2 cina amoi at mont kiara!! this is the 1st day~take picture with iphone4~~nice right?
luckily bone is there..borrow the mask from him and take some pix!! i love the mask! look like scary but nice..

here we go with other friends...=)

im not sure what his name,he from brazil.but they call him ALEJANDRO..hahahaha~~
with the sleepy cat! TK...like very yeng one right?! haha~

finally start competition already! 1st is rollerblade,2nd is skateboard and 3rd is bmx..
quite cool! and congratulation for fuad,tk,azreen and ja!! they in finalist!

the next day!! with the tiring mood and my eyes even can't open yet!! din sleep well..=(
early morning follow von going to sunway for IPOD TOUCH! some dopers bought their ipod ..wow..macam yes jer!! after that,heading to mont kiara~

same like 1st day.. wait around 3hours and the event start!!

camwhore queen burning von's camera!! hahaha~~
this one is dope...me and ja! like brother!!! with the sepet!!!!!

me and mr.fuad..his cute boom hair! rambut kerinting!!

and me..lady seven..=)

my eyes look more sepet ..hahaha~

we leaving early! not sure who is the winner..but they said is ADAM KEPONG..one of their friend! hmm..i think so~~

this is mesc...end with tired mood! haha...
how about ni hao?? lol...joke of the day!!

=)

wanna be?？

2010-10-04T10:25:00.000-07:00

i'm emo everyday? no..i'm just want to release myself,and sharing my feeling at here! it's NOT EMO! nowadays,people change alot! we not even know what they want or what they thinking! but there is not my business,what i should care for it? i have my problem and i want to solve it everyday.. but sure welcome you share with me and thx to sharing too! don't look at me and ask me to answer what u think! i'm not in your mind,i can't feel you sometime,even i explaining like 15454445812times..and you never listen my words! so why i want to explaining again? i'm lazy with that! maybe you still younger!!

aite..stop with it! new topic please...

i want to get a new phone,haha..BLACKBERRY...i coming!! wait for me!! LOL... friend asking me why don't you buy iphone!! and i ask him back..u pay for me? i'm not the rich one,and problem financial..so don't ask me again! i bet you will get a punch from me..hahahahahahaha~i'm not gonna tell my mum,i know she will scolding me when she know that! bad daughter...

my sister getting married soon...on 10/10/10...this is a big day!! with best chingu-ding dong bell's birthday! she got a party at 9 oct..i should go or? hmmm....and 10 oct..actually i have to go ipoh for helping my sister! but 8tv showdown street festival in same day! clash..sorry for my sis because i'm not going! i hope i'll be there....=(

ending...
i want to eat supper,ofcoz i want to care myself too! need to keepfit! sure you guys scolding me because too skinny,still want to slimming!! eh...i got big tummy!!! everyone call me boncit!! you thought i want to slimming??? i am sad with my boncit..now i realize i am lazy person! lazy to excercise,like to eat so much.....although i am dancer! it doesn't mean i have no boncit!! sometime i proud with it! hahaha....as long as i'm happy..right? so just let it be,everyday sit-up and stop supper from now! i bet i will fail with that! haha...

flash back to my playlist! i found peterpan and listen it whole night long! they're my favourite band,from indonesia.. MUNGKIN BILA NANTI,BINTANG DI SURGA... they still fresh for me! love the songs so much! link here for bintang di surga..
MV bintang di surga ... touching video too!! OMG...

2:30am, malaysia! bye and good night~ sweet dreams to all of you! and miss T so much.. ta~~~~~~~~~~

SHIT DAYS...

2010-10-03T10:42:00.002-07:00

apa yang paling penting dalam hatimu?
apa yang anda mahu ?

sometime we should not thinking too much! it's not good for health! ya...but i have no idea and wth i'm thinking now! just only a dream..but it's keep showing in my mind! so? what the mean for? ya..i'm really headache for this! HEADACHE~

same with others..they're most important to me! just let it be~~

with the funny shit! i hate ktm malayisa! me almost fainted inside the train..because too many people there! BREATHLESS...people keep pushing like nobody care! why be like that? so please..attention! switch on the air-con @@ aku memang xnak pengsan kat dalam kereta-api!bongok la tu! siap lagi semua orang tengok i!! ==

before bed time..

still headache...i'm not to eat panadol anymore! i'm used to it so control my mind and blaaaaa....
i want to sleep now! tomorrow 3pm practice with soul krazy! and class at kepong!! busy rite? nah...bullshit~

good night everyone! =)
anyway...i'm ok now...

有一天～

2010-10-01T05:21:00.000-07:00

有一天，所有的事物都会有变化的！
不管是人，还是其他的～

别人说，要好好过日子··因为你真的不知道接下来会发生些什么事！
有什么事都该趁年轻吧！但有时候年轻所做的总会后悔～
这些都是再看自己本身吧？

年轻的我们总是想飞出去，闯出一片天空···
家人总会反对，因为他怕你们出去了，在你还未飞上天的时候，受伤了···
家人总是在关心我们··只是我们不明白···
人世间的事物，就在你回头看一看···所有的事情都变了！
到时候，雨水和泪水参杂在一起···模糊了视线···后悔当初！
我也是过来人···有时真的很不喜欢····但是他们都是我敬爱的人！
我个人比较情绪化··容易欢喜，容易忧伤···
我每次和家人吵架后都会冷静地在想···就算我再怎样和他们吵···
他们都不会改变自己的主观··可以说，有时候我家人是比较固执的！
但有些朋友说是太固执～我笑说··能怎样啊！我已经习惯了···
已经和他们一起生活了那么多年···我已经习惯了啊！
倒过来···有时候，我不在家···都会想起家人！想起家的味道！
现在的我···与之前的我是有些差别！之前的我就是很幼稚，一直要飞出去··
虽然现在要飞出去，但我还是会三思！凡事都请三思啊！
哈～也许吧！想得多了！人也比较老了！感觉自己就像个老头子那样！
有些心思还未成熟的，是时候了吧！
哦····目标！!定下目标，努力往前走···不是说要闯就闯···要有目标的吧！
但有些人一出世就有贵人帮助··这就很难说了～
像我这一种···其实我不应该活着这样的生活····
我应该像个普通的女孩！到了这个年纪，应该是去上college或者做工之类的！
但我选择了另一条路！
爸妈都说我选错了！我会后悔的！
就在我选了这条路的时候····我告诉自己！不可以后悔～
也要坚强地做好自己！拼出成绩来！这就是目标！
要一直向前走，失败了在努力地爬起来！
所以什么事情都要‘硬撞’··什么事都和家人吵！
可是我错了～现在会想了，就会明白一切～
我很喜欢我现在·····我喜欢我的工作···
有时候还是会埋怨···可是我还是那么的喜欢！
这类的工作··说辛苦···是一定会有的！每份工作都有辛苦和压力···
是看你自己如何去掌握，如何去解决！
只要过得开心就好了！
伤心总会有的！没有了伤心，哪来的快乐？
人没有失败，哪来的成功？
enjoy your life ..appreciate what you got...
珍惜眼前的一切···

我努力···也想要证明给家人知道，从走到会飞过程中的一切～
并不会让他们失望！希望他们会明白吧！
接下来的努力是没有白费的！

=)

Flash back again!

2010-09-30T03:50:00.000-07:00

oopss..sorry!! im fucking bored! so i decided BLOG again!
feel sleepy and do nothing..

aite..listen to house music and chilling at home..with the fucking bored mood! i wish a can of beer with me now! but im sick..whatever!

so missing my two boobies..ANGELYNE CILVENDER and VON CHINMAAN
what the fish where u going angelyne? already few weeks din saw u!i think u really busy d..haha..i think u get what i means!! LOL...miss ur ass...IM GONNA SMACK UR ASS GAO GAO! and von..she just finished her sweet sweet date just now! so sorry didnt date with both of u! i mean von and thia thia! u know..im always lazy like a pig! saturday i will on with u guys,and MISS A want to along with us! so happening this saturday!! haha...

im gonna burn my jeans ,leggings and short pants! why?
because always wear casual like jeans or legging with a singlet and shirt! how long never go clubbing d?? i think 2months?? shit....==
need to planning now..for clubbing! wahahahaha....

i addicted to blouse...heart it!! i want to get more and more please!! with my red hair!!

nah..poyo gile!!!

have fun with my dinner soon!! ciao guys..=)

Baddest senorita 2

2010-09-29T22:34:00.000-07:00

continue with the last one...
sorry for the late update...

now enjoy the stylo mylo...

mademoiselle yulia again! my favourite always..

she rock my style! heart it!

love her jacket!!vintage style..=)

yeah! one of my favourite..jacket with the oldies printed shirt and the boots..=)

leather jacket and leopard...hot stuff!!

she smoke me! =)

im not going to anywhere ..
bcz already sick!! i think so!
my nose still "sour and pain" ..i have no idea what is that!
fine..i will stay at home and be a good girl!!! *wtf*
everyone ask me to go out..
*I JUST WANT TO STAY AT HOME*
cheh cheh..poyo! actually i want to hang out with my besties.but im sick!
so forced to stay at home! and take medicine!
hahahaha, and prepare for saturday and sunday...
im not gonna tell u now! shhh.....=)

ciao~

Baddest senorita

2010-09-28T10:11:00.000-07:00

Imma 'baddest female'
nah...that's me! lady seven...
blogging again..nothing much just randomly!
finally finish the competition,but need to prepare for other routines..
5 songs in one month! crazy rite? yupp..we need to finish 5 choreo in one month..bad ass! totally lose control..feel like want to slap myself to clear my mind!

nowaday..everyone is emo-ing! even me also! i have no idea for myself,sometime i like myself,sometime i hate myself;sometime i hate you,sometime i like you! in fact,this is trap to make you sadness and moody! or we just think too much?

anyway...just be myself! i like reading people's blog or viewing some fashion news..there is a way to reduce pressure! ofcause blogging to express my feeling!

time to change my blog's music..i addicted to this song..
because i love you

nice and heart it!
and indie music rock my mind always..
anyway,music always accompanies me when you not with me!

the next one..baddest for me..FASHION!
i would like to say i am a sassy girl..but my mum hate my style! haha...
i addicted to vintage ..she said i am old fashion,i was like..wow,i am old! ya.maybe..because i love vintage! but she doesnt understand what in my mind! anyway..there is some cool fashion to share with you guys..lazy to add captions ..just enjoy it!

sorry for blur..

sorry for technical problem..haha..
only can upload 2 photos..something wrong about my blog setting!
it's ok..will upload later and blog again!

ciao~

astro battleground and randomly..

2010-09-27T09:50:00.001-07:00

很开心我们进到了semi final...astro battleground 2010..
真的没有想到我们能够顺利进到！还以为要battle··说真的，第二天做得不是很好！第一天也是！我觉得我自己做得不好吧！但是人是要进步的！不停地学习！从错误中学习！

今天我上了很好的课！虽然没上到aga和marcus的课！上了cleo和losse joint的课！！这真的让我学到不少东西！就像loose所说的..不停地学习！真的很佩服他！哈哈～上他的课，可以让你累毙了！是一直不停地动···可以说是满载而归！！！

时间不停地转变！现在的世界，社会也变！舞蹈界也变了！人也变了！就在那短短地时间里，足足可以让一个人变了一切！不再对你关心了！不再理会你了！算是自作多受吧！但能怎样，一个人不明白事理，他怎么也不和你妥协的吧！就在这个时候，少了这种亲切感，真的有些不好！毕竟总是会碰面的吧！见面也不知要说些什么！尴尬场面又要再出现了！有时候真的要狠心一点，你做初一，我做十五！可是，何必呢？？是我太friendly了吗？我做不到！！

我不喜欢别人临时做决定，这不是好处！要是每个人都这样！那世界真的是完蛋了！碰到这些人。心里真的很想挥拳，然后对他们说，我挥拳因为是我临时做决定想打你！看你们会怎么说！还有自私，自大，不要脸，没有秩序，的人！最近都遇得超多！！好想破口大骂··本大王可是忍了很久，还有别在我的心情不好的时候，说些废话！本大王真的会骂人啊！

过去的就让他过去！要成回忆了啦！

PS:对待你们···我真的很累！

所有的一切！

2010-09-23T05:37:00.000-07:00

我这一生人···最痛恨赌博！现在，未来，甚至下一世永永远远反对赌博！你们好赌成性，令家里一点也不好过！如果你们把赌博的钱存起来，我相信，我们的家庭可以像别人一样！日子也过的比较好！我很难受，我做不到最好给你们！我无法给到你们想要的！！我也做不到我自己的想要的！你们不放心我，我要怎样证明给你们看?现在的社会不一样了！不再是以前你们的生活！我现在年轻，可以做到我要做的，我不要在我老了以后后悔一切，后悔没做到我想要做的！大吉利市说一次，要是我有什么三长两短，我就不能实现我要的，那时···我相信我永远都不会安眠！我很开心我现在成功了一半，至少在外头有人知道我叫lady seven，也记住我是谁！但，对我真真的成功是家里人的赞同！也许这很难，可是我很想拼命下去！到现在，最大的障碍就是你们，我亲爱的家人！我能够做到很好很好给你们看，上天不想那么容易让我成功，这考到我了，我做些什么事情，也要经过你们！对，这是对的！做任何事情，都一定要经过家里人！但是，你要我证明给你们看，那你们有给机会吗？？之前，我有机会得到一个很好的工作机会，我还和你们商量，和你们解释一切！就是因为你们的一句‘不可以’···我就要放弃！到底有多少事情就是你们的‘不可以’，我就放弃了！我现在想回，真的很可惜！我不想那么容易就被打垮，我一直告诉自己，要加油，不要放弃···我可以支持到现在算很好了！人生有多少个十年？？过了这个十年的机会，我就没什么机会跳舞了。现在我努力地在跳舞，过了这十年，至少我有打算！哈～我相信你们一定会笑我！因为你们完全没有重视我的想法！

在这个社会里···每个人都学习着，为什么我看不到你们在学习着？？为什么你们就是喜欢看衰人家！别人都有尊严的！你们可以尝试尊重别人吗？？你们到底尊重的是什么？？钱？名利？为什么你们不看清别人的里面，就是爱看别人的外表！我在这个年纪已学到了这一样，你们是我的老一辈，也是我尊敬的人，为什么你们还未学到？？？你们凭外表就断定别人，为什么你们那么肯定？？不是每一个都是你们想的那样！你们必须学习这一点！

你们一向是我要尊敬的，可是你们的想法，令我很反感！你们认为我叛逆，不听话！要是你们这样认为，好！我承认！我在你们身上学习了很多-固执，不听别人解释，没有再深入地去了解，认为自己是对的，别人是错的！这让我知道做人一定要去了解，看开点，也要会想！但也谢谢你们，我知道你们关心我，可是你们用错方式来关心我！你们很疼我，谢谢···太疼我了，我想要独立，不想再依靠你们！现在我已经习惯依靠你们了！你们开心吧？？？？？？

有些事情，请不要用后悔这两个字！我还是我！做了就做了！！！后悔？我真的后悔了！但，只有出现在你们的身上！有许多很好的事情等着我，我放弃了因为你们！我后悔了！！我后悔给不到你们最好的！在家里，总是后悔这个，后悔那个！！但是都是同样的事物！但我对得起自己，因为我没有杀人放火，害人，打劫，偷东西，吸毒！哪些好，哪些坏，我明白的！！

ps:对不起，我想要发泄！我只能以这样来抒发自己的情绪！
后天要比赛了，我不想被这种感觉给坏了心情！我也不想做些傻事！
唯有靠这里抒发情绪！

～心情不好受的我～
希望一切都是晴朗的！

random shit!

2010-09-21T11:18:00.000-07:00

the story started few weeks ago!
i was like shout out in 157656875215times ..
I WANT RED HAIR..and finally,im done!
totally hot and red,i doesnt mean im hot,its my hair! LOL...
watever..
when i meet my besties..angelyne cilvender!!
she was like JERIT JERIT because the colour is too sharp! haha
before that,i need to told u guys..YA..MY MUM roll eyes and said-u like a ghost!! can u guys tell me,what ghost is that? red hair with the mata sepet!! hahaha...not funny as all! but..she never kick my ass,my mum already used to it!! IM THE BAD ONE! now i used to it!!

i don't care!!!!!

with the next one!! like to being a bad girl huh!
still in confusing the next tattoo.....
i like bird *haha..what kind of bird u think* hahahahaha
ELO..please la! is SWALLOW...don't think too much!
why ar? no why..just like it,and just do it!!! don't again to ask me WHY,it's bored!!
tattoo...but it's doesn't mean im really bad!
don't judge me with my tattoo! im still good...eh hemmm...
half good half bad la! bla...bla...bla...

i want it!!!!

hennessy artistry 2010 in mist club bangsar..
full....people mountain people sea..*hahaha*
lotsa people join the party!!
and soul krazy perform with ZE!..pop electro girl oso!!
i like her style!!! she really awesome and cute!!
and me? make up artist lo,just show off dancing awhile then back to backstage!
because is really tired!! and the alcohol...DOPE!!!

life ...................

总是这样！为什么啊？
人的性格总是不一样的！感觉也不一样！
我还要把这一句话·，再写出来！！
不忿气！！

-冚家拎真系要送俾你地！你地靠恶赢佐，无以为好多人会respect你地！只会睇衰你地！点解你地真系好中意用歧视既眼光睇我地！输佐竟然唔认数，仲要唱衰我地！哈哈哈！睇到真系好搞笑！！！！

送给你们的！！哈哈哈～

-wall lords-

2010-09-10T08:41:00.000-07:00

今日想提一提penang既拍摄！！

-战墙- Wall Lords

系一部关于涂鸦，跳舞，滑板同埋少少既爱情，友情既戏～
中国导演拉大队黎到依道拍戏！
大家都逗留佐应该有三个礼拜啦～

首先，第一日到个道真系完全唔识得佢地！
之后开始打熟佐啦！！
哈哈哈～
接落来有好多精彩既日子啊！
仲识得好多人啊！
其实真系好好玩噶！
开始挂念大家佐！唔知佢地过得好唔好！

用返华语先！

朋友们，你们过得好不好啊？？
超想念你们啊！！

kawan2 sekalian!!

Ewok grafitti=)

hard rock seaside.=)

prepare for shooting!

our big boss-BLACK TOWER-

sweet baby
-Anna K-
(吉儿）

暂时得甘多啦！
想睇更多既相！到我既FB吧～～～

系penang又吃做好多野！
burger(超大既hotdog),pelita's food,asam laksa,prawn mee..
但系点解我无肥都既？？？？
我要增肥啊！！

哈哈哈～讲下唔会死呵？？哈哈哈～

我要训啦～再见各位～～

谁人无过？

2010-09-06T10:21:00.000-07:00

到底要点样？
点解感觉上有D唔一样佐既？
算系我地第一次吵架····
头先当我听到你讲做返朋友···
我既眼泪已经流佐落来！
虽然我唔想就甘算数！我哋都未曾出来行街，睇戏～
就如你所讲，唔忿气！！

依家雨过天晴···
希望好好甘继续落去···

天日又要去penang~
简直系我既第二个家，返来kl虽然唔系讲好差啦～
系觉得闷闷地咯！人就系甘嘎······

真系唔知要写D乜野！

系啦～今日睇中佐一件衫！一定要买嘎！！因为好唔错嘎～～～

再来，忙既时间就快到啦～
又要练习啦！
需要人来氹下我啊！
哈哈～
讲下啧！！！！！！！！！

~736~

2010-09-02T11:40:00.000-07:00

一个下午～

系房间望出去～
睇到既系一片天空，游泳池，同埋雀仔！！虽然有d闷！但系无办法咯！！有d挂住kl既朋友同屋企人！人生既野咧～～～

500号～
系我同埋d朋友们最开心既地方～点解？？？因为有班废材一起颠！好彩有佢地啊～～唔系既话，真系好L闷！

但系，我又爱上佐penang！都唔知点解！！哈哈哈

736
系我住既房间！对唔住！系我同朋友住既地方～
讲真！系真系无野玩！但系都算系唔错下啦！在加上天气好好！总系想出去行下甘！就因为甘，就快破产啦～

接落来，要拍戏啦～就快返去kl啦～朋友，系米等到好长时间咧？？哈哈哈，都知知地嘎啦！！哈哈哈～开玩笑啧！！！

无野写啦～好闷啊～～

系时候训了～＝＝

晚安！！！！！！！

my feeling!!

2010-08-28T04:55:00.000-07:00

im so glad because SOUL KRAZY made it to the next round in ASTRO BATTLEGROUND! we in top 16!! we dance hard till we all sweating like hell!! penat gileee.....smore we need dance with the little smaller cuter chair!! hahahaha....this is what we did today!!

everyone watching step up 3 tonite....me,von,angelyne cilvender,bobby,eric and chung didi watching at ioi mall later....erm around 930pm!! i love the movie because dancing!!! dancers inside the movie is so so so so so amazing and gorgeous!! LOL... waiting-ing....

tomorrow going to penang...continue shooting with crew from china!! WOW..i havent post ??!! hell ya!! im gonna become superstar KELEFE!!! haha..wtf!!!! i shoot with von!! the movie is talking bout the graffiti and dancing!!! what we should do??? haha...teach the actor how to speak broken chinese..wahahahah!!! they need to act like malaysian!! 1st day at penang. watching shooting and do nothing!! fucking bored!! 2nd day do nothing oso...after shoot thn bac to hotel and sleep!! NIGHT chilling with penang showdown homies!!! beer,ha mee(prawn mee),chicken chop,french fries,ho jian(oyster with egg one),char kuey tiao!!! we really crazy at northern beach!! ofcoz me and von going bac to hotel with the red red face~~haha..but we not drunk!! 3rd days, meet fuad,tk and ja chicken! all the way from kl too..they are skateboarder!! cool and stylo....last day shoot with a black guy!! we all become gangster,and having fun!!! that's all!!! SO,we need to going back on 29th till 3rd sept for shooting again!! smore gt dance fair,wowwwww....i wan to go if im free!!!

i hope can come bac on 4th sept!!! LMF concert!!!! wait till my neck long d~~~ haahahahaha..so please!!!!!!!! please!!!!!!!! -.-

nah..nothing to say~~~ dowan bullshit liao!! i wan bath!! NO BATH NO LIFE!! me at angelyne's house..she sleep like a pig!! hahaha..smack her ass!! LOL...

byeeeee..

xoxo!!!

NAH.....

2010-08-21T03:35:00.000-07:00

一二两只手指！
意义就只有自由两个字！
一无所有既斗士
揸紧中指唔系你想像甘易！！

听日去penang audition
唔知会中无！但系希望啦！
电影喔！边lan个唔想啊！
听日最好去enjoy啦···

寻日都现在都无訓都觉···
好眼睡～～

听日一定要戴眼镜···妈嗨····
眼一定又肿又大眼圈····

好挂住我条仔啊！！哈哈哈哈哈哈～
他睇都一定笑都好lan开心····

太多粗口···他唔中意架！！切··都无知系唔系！！LOL

再见朋友们····
向滨城既朋友们say halo....

我同von姐···两条友就好似大姑出城甘！！
拿好多好多野啊！！！无办法啦～～
惨啊！！

addicted to you!

2010-08-19T03:41:00.000-07:00

纹身，刺青～

在以前，总会觉得坏人都有刺青····
但我觉得那很漂亮···
就像在你身上画画一样···
每个图案都有不同的意思····
色彩，黑白，字还是其他的···

长大后··

说真的···我对纹身蛮有兴趣的！
也是一门艺术···
有许多人接受不了····
因为好好的皮肤就这样花了···
每个人都有不同的想法··但只要你接触了，你就会明白！

KAT VON D~
tattoo artist...
就算她纹到全身都有！她还是那么的性感！wow~~~~~

woot woot!!! nice one....=)

fucking in love!!!

shock..i love it!!! feel it!!!!!

wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!这就是艺术嘛！！！

end with xoxo..=)

Something inside my heart*

2010-08-18T08:56:00.001-07:00

最近过得好不好？
-还好吧～

很闷···因为所有人都是这样问！我也答的有点不耐烦！

最近都很没空那样！
说真的···我很累···
我每次这样出去····真的很快没电！
大多数时间··我选择在家休养···不想到处跑···

虽然我在家里的日子很闷···
可是至少拥有会我要的感觉···

这一年来···
经历了五次的小车祸····
都不是很严重···但是就是要劝告所有人···
马路如虎口，驾驶要小心··

这问题··
在我心里很久了···
我到底要选择什么·？？？
现实一路一路的逼近，我要怎样???
我真的不知道要怎样···
每次说顺其自然！可是我并没什么时间了！
一年快到了····我做出了什么来？？？
有时候，知道自己没能力，没实力，没用处···
可是我真的很希望，我能做到！！
但是现实中并不是我想得那么完美！那么简单！
我看到，人与人之间的一面！

我有放弃的念头····
但是我还是想抓紧机会，拼命往上爬···

在这里的日子···
是我最开心的！
但是···到了外面····很难说！

经一事，长一智！

My style..my mind...

2010-08-12T08:18:00.000-07:00

想必大家都问我···eh,是cherry gun或者lena吗？？
不···
就是参考吧！
从她们的服装sense学习！
不只是她们···我也很喜欢lady gaga,rihanna,taylor momsen..
我本人很喜欢vintage clothing···二手衣～
就是别有一番味道··
有些人说···eh，你穿二手衣，不觉得肮脏吗？那问你啊，你穿过的衣服，不要了然后送去孤儿院还是哪里的！别人就会穿你的衣服了啦····那他们会觉得肮脏吗？
如果你觉得你自己脏吧！哈···
再说···衣服可以洗的啊！别那么大小眼吧！
对我来说······
衣服穿在身上就是要舒服和带出你本人个性和味道～
搭配也和重要···
其实我蛮喜欢乱搭···颜色就有点撞的那种！哈哈～
可以说是个人风格吧！！不过怎么说，黑白色还是最重要！
我的人也是这样····
彩色里带点黑和白！
当然也蛮喜欢electro,rock的服饰～
认识我的朋友们都会说我蛮有个性·····
那我就是我啊·····‘怎样都会加点我自己的想法····’
所以我穿着打扮都是这样吧！（有时候搞不清楚这是优点还是缺点）

再来···
shopaholic...大多数的女性都是吧？？？
包括我自己在内····可以说无法停止吧！！
哈哈哈～～～
又想要分享了吧！
欧式风格或美式风格～

还是她～
mademoiselle yulia
超牛的～～～
woot woot

i love dressing...i love style...i love fashion!!
每天都这样对自己说～
帮别人打造造型，帮别人打扮也可以成为乐趣···
我还蛮开心过着和朋友一起打扮的日子～

刚刚朋友介绍了一件超牛的店～
就在london有一间蛮出名的vintage clothing shop~

-BEYOND RETRO-

里面有超多的vintage服饰，包包等！！
希望有朝一日可以到那里去逛逛·······

在这一季，少不了denim 物品···denim jeans，denim short pants,denim jacket!
正找着心头爱····到目前为止还找不到！！
高跟鞋可是少不了的！最近都不能一直穿··因为脚趾的伤还没好！
高腰裤，高腰裙，超大jacket，colourful sunglasses, 头巾，豹纹····等～
充满七十和八十年代的打扮！
当然我蛮想尝试五十年代的！可是这回要买假头发来带了才像嘛！！
哈～头发太短了啦！！

这是本人的兴趣吧！如果有意见···请让我知道～
（这什么？我··也不知要写些什么！）

怀念····

2010-08-09T10:44:00.000-07:00

最近怀念很多东西～

-我怀念我的婆婆···我希望在天上的她可以保佑我们，保佑所有人，我也希望她听到我的声音，我想念你···我怀念妳为我烧的饭，我怀念你带我放学，怀念你的声音，怀念你的烟味，怀念你老老旧旧的鞋子和衣服···以前被妈妈打，你就会出来阻止···
直到现在我还很想念你！

-我怀念以前的我，傻傻的，笨笨的～背着书包上学，回家，做功课···

-我怀念以前的吵吵闹闹，以前有姐姐在家，大家的吵架声，欢笑声，分享自己的事情···现在家里很静了····························

-我怀念以前读书的朋友，大家坐在一起吹水，分享人生大事···现在大家都各自有各自的忙·····

-我怀念以前妈妈为我清耳朵，怀念他买冰淇淋给我们吃，怀念爸爸在晚上买榴莲，买包给我们吃···

-我怀恋中秋节一家人在屋子外面吃月饼，看月亮，提灯笼，玩蜡烛～～

-我怀恋每个除夕，和家人一起看烟花·······

-我怀念以前家的味道···我怀恋以前的rawang····

我怀念一切····
感觉时间过得很快····

许多事都变了····
我已经长大了···可是我还是那么的没用···

我希望我拥有翅膀···飞得自由自在···寻找自己的梦想···
可是····这永远都不能出现在我的身上··

生活的压力和生活的尊严哪个重要····

就如这一首歌‘我是一只小小鸟’

Alis volat propriis...

my new tattoo
alis volat propriis
mean she flies with her own wings
i wish i did.......

当我写着婆婆的时候，我的眼泪流下来了···
心里面很想念她····

阿嫲···你好无？我真挂念妳啊！请你保佑我们···好吗？？

FLAVOUR~~

2010-08-04T07:28:00.000-07:00

我想问自己很多为什么！
头脑挂满问号！

说实在的！
我还是会很怕···
我很怕并不是些什么！我怕的是到底他会不会骗我？
会不会又遇到之前那样的！
很害怕你会说没机会！这是恐惧感吗？
我尝试在那么久来淡忘，和学习！
虽然我真的做到了！
但是，还是会不放心吧！

你说一个月里，有些事会变的！
我不怕···我对我自己有信心！
这倒是你～～～～
别人说我天不怕地不怕的样子···
可是我心里有多脆弱···没多少个知道吧！

我不想让我自己失望！

可是我要顾及别人的感受··

看来我要更坚强······

我讨厌这样···可是又很开心，因为这让我学到了很多！
这叫做‘又爱又恨’

--我爱喝汽水，虽然妈妈说对身体不好！可是每当开冰箱，就会顺手拿起汽水喝！不管冰箱里还有其他的选择，我就是喜欢我要的，我喜欢的，虽然这汽水会让我肚子疼，但是我还是会一直喝这汽水，一旦选上了就爱不释手···但现在要我忘了这汽水的味道，我看我办不到！--

味道，一旦喜欢上就很难忘记！

ps:以前的汽水，别让我看到你了···因为你把我折磨的很痛苦！

现在已经是五年后的我！
我花了不少时间去学习，变得更坚强！
但唯一条件，我不想见到你这种人！
想不到·······

算了～
我想抱着希望过生活···

im peace out...

-xoxo-

紧绷的日子！

2010-08-03T09:49:00.000-07:00

今天时间很紧凑～和朋友拍完了photo shooting!
说真的···我不会摆pose·····><
其实我和很厉害！可以说我又没有睡到觉！！
所以今天反应有点慢···
还是头脑一直想着其它问题？？

嗯～～～
可以说是吧！
为什么有这种感觉？？？
在那时候，我有一种想哭的感觉！！！
说真的，我很怀念被一个充满温暖的抱抱着！
就是在这个时候········
真的会有一种莫名其妙的感动···就很想哭出来的感觉！
这到底是怎样？？

打从和第一和第二的男朋友分手后···
相隔了那么久，你是第三个突然让我感到很感动和温暖！
我很喜欢···可是·····
我明白的···并不是每一件事都那么容易！
当中一定有不少的波折！想要过的这一关，不是每个人都可以的！
我不强求些什么···
就是想珍惜现在···
因为我自己也不懂之后会发生些什么事····
我也看得很开，也会努力的去学着！
不管经过多少事，一定会坚强下去··这就是我的意志力！
所以别担心··············
就如你所说···戏如人生嘛～

不管怎样也好，我也应该为你着想的吧～
JUST LET IT BE...woot woot

哈～
不过呢！！我蛮*大头虾*的～
刚不小心弄伤指甲··流血了！！惨了，这些小事，竟然也照顾不好！
哈哈～～
放心好了，只是偶尔头脑不灵活，笨了一些！

还是那一句···
大家开心就好···
做到最好，永远不气馁，不放弃···
可以唱唱一首歌吗？？？
*死了都要爱*哈哈哈哈～～ki xiao..

=P

同样的心情

2010-08-02T10:58:00.000-07:00

我还是很累！
别人和我申诉着同样的事情！我也是过来人！我明白。
可是看开点！凡是都会有变化的！不是每次都失败！！！
当你真正想要得到，想要做到，你就会不停的去努力和付出！
YOU KNOW, WHAT YOU GOT IS NOT EASY!!

我已经烦了许多天！同样面对问题，但是我能怎样？
只能做我现在做的！直到我成功，在我还未成功的这一段时间里，可能会很辛苦，很难过。
但是又能怎样？？一样还是要面对的！
这就是我想到的~~
just let it be...

无聊的我

每天都在想，不停的想~
有什么用？？？？
用酒消愁，用钱消愁~有什么用？？？
实际点吧，以前我就是这样，过后，每天过着颓废的日子！
这样麻醉自己没有用的！
当我想清楚了，就觉得自己很笨！

现在~有时间就为下每个人！！
不要浪费时间！！！！

酒就在我的旁边！不过以现在的心情！我不会乱来的吧！！！哈哈~

加油！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

滴滴答答～潮流～

2010-07-30T06:16:00.000-07:00

时间过得很快～
已经过了半年了，而我的成就感呢？？还没实现!
现在我人又生病了！一整天都没出去～
好了···不说些伤心的！来一些娱乐～

最近蛮喜欢GIZA
by mademoiselle yulia~可以说快被他迷倒了吧？
我个人蛮喜欢他设计的giza~
包括2ne1,big bang,verbal from M-FLO都有在用～

还有以下的单品～

rings···

necklace···

ofcause mademoiselle yulia too

amazing girl.
listen to yulia remix and
her song too
touch me=)
nice..

and next sexy icon....
ya...that's her ..angelina jolie...she is damn sexy!!

and love angelina's tattoo so much!!

this is what i call..
SEXY BACK!!!!
woot woot...

i just found other suicide girl!! its mean tattoo girl...=P
quite nice...but ....im not dare to do..rite?? haha~

with the next..rihanna..her style kill me..LOL..
rihanna is one of my fav styler too...=)

new hair style!!!
=)

aite..peace out now..still fever!! need to sleep early!!
i'm still thinking want to go angelyne's bday party or not!
have no transport to go..just fucking hate stuck at here..
i'm lazy to solve this problem...
because its already spoiled my mood...
my room so messy because i throw all my stuff and cloths..
im really pek cek now..dont bother me when my emotional mode on!!

我的小世界！

2010-07-28T09:07:00.000-07:00

我的世界从满幻想吧？
哈哈哈～～～
每天都在想要打扮些什么，跳些什么舞～～
头脑就只有这些！最近爱上了设计～也爱上了模特儿精致的脸孔～～
要向大家介绍这位模特儿～
MARTIN COHN

wow...很漂亮对吧？？

再给你们看下几张照片！

怎样？怀疑了吧？？其实他是男生！妩媚的男生～～
就是爱上他这样的感觉！！

why??just tell me why??
他穿女装走起天桥来
完全看不出他是男生！！

errrrggg
帅气吧～～

看下他脚下的高跟鞋！
超酷！！
wowwwwww!!!

对～我的世界就是充满这一些！
再来！！最近最爱的服装～
histreet/mcc/urbanstreet的感觉！！
以下都是我的女神～
先介绍～～
MADEMOISELLE YULIA

my queen
dj..
singer..
designer for GIZA

CHERRYGUN 陈星如

from china beijing
服装造型师
milk杂志写者
最爱urbanstreet
and histreet打扮
mcc复古女王非她也！！

发下几张关于他们的照片～
还有其他的street snap，欧美打扮～

yulia和cherrygun

还有这位～
从lookbook里注意到她～
对她的打扮蛮喜欢的！
就这样一直都去看她的最新搭配～
=）

有时候
也蛮喜欢这样的打扮～
清新，凉爽～～
哈哈

moschino～～
我很喜欢她
moschino belt!!!

再来发一张cherry gun的照片～～
最近她剃光头了！！omg....好潮啊！！

迷上她了！！ LOL..
aite....im need to rest now..=)
cya tml...
tml night show at zouk!! wooohoooo

我的感受好比烈酒撒伤口！

2010-07-27T10:32:00.000-07:00

最近都一直呆在家，很少出门！
可是要面对的问题就是我妈妈！
我无语，我无法反驳···因为我对自己说过，不再反驳他们！
顺他们的意思～
想不到有些时候真的不能完全顺他们的意····
自从showdown完毕后，我一直在想要怎样面对家里人！
不是说他们对我的期望高···
是因为我曾经与他们约定好···一定要做到成绩给他们看···
要不然，我就必须走！虽然我已经想清楚，随时有要走的打算了！
但是爸爸突然不让我离开！

就在这几天···妈妈就拿着showdown或者比赛输了的话题！
也或者是我赚不了钱的话题来讨论！
妈妈说：比赛输了，你还要跳舞来干什么？
我说：那是一个经验，我在累积经验！
她回：那你跳舞赚得了多少钱，为什么你就是不要去做分工，安安定定有收入！也学到东西！
我说：跳舞也可以学到东西！
她说：学到什么？钱又赚不到，还和我借钱！
我说：因为showdown，取消了很多课，所以这个月得到的薪水都很少！但是这个月恢复了，下一个月就可以得到多点钱！
她说：你每次都这样，看你啦，一事无成！以后怎样出人头地！
我：无语～～
在这时候，我心很痛，人是可以比较的，可是我偏不喜欢你拿我和别人比较！我希望你对我有信心，支持我！也许····看来，我得不到了！
我明白家里的处境，我也明白你们想要我怎样！已经两年了···
我也很愧疚···我真的很没用，我什么也做不到，也证明不了给你们看！！
我多努力也好，你们也没看一看····证明了我是多么的失败！
大家一直支持我，我很谢谢大家···但是我需要你们，需要家里人的支持！
这是我最大的愿望！！

做dancer很难，每个人都会经过这个阶段！
为什么大家都认为这是做不到的呢？
那为什么外国的都做到呢？？甚至有自己的production
为什么我们不可以？？
Dancer并不像在公司做工那样～dancer是表演者····
表演是其次～
还有身为dancer就有责任宣传正正的舞蹈精神和意义给全球的人～
好让所有人明白！
舞蹈是拥有悠久的历史～要说舞蹈的东西，是说不完的！
舞蹈并没有坏的！而是看现在的社会令所有人如何看待舞蹈而已～

接下来···
我需要酒来平复我的情绪···
说真的，我真的很痛苦···就像刀在伤口上一直不停的划过～
希望明天是开心的一天！晴朗的一天！！

人的生活····就是活得精彩～

2010-07-26T02:43:00.000-07:00

是时候更新一下～～
最近一直在忙着比赛，也没时间写部落格！
现在我回来啦～
好说了，一直都喜欢vintage的我···时常更换造型！！
但是，最近都一直跳舞，没时间穿得漂漂亮亮，逛街去！
说一说最近的状况！
也接近一个月的时间没去club了～
最近和朋友去了mist···有点不过瘾！因为啊，太多人了！完全没位置站啊！！
对了··这个星期六是我的大家姐angelyne cilvender的生日party!
要穿些什么去呢？？顺其自然吧！！
接下来，昨天刚过了比赛！虽然没拿到！但是good try!!我们也没跳错吧？hahahaha
恭喜FAMOUS CREW,FLOOR FEVER,CD PLAYER···=)

我就是这样！剪了短发的我，可以说稍微有个性点！
的确，我的性格是带点个性的！我也很爱我的短发··还可以不停的改变造型～

这张有点不像我吧！原因是脸上的两点（小痣，画上去的！）

再来···
突然间喜欢了纹身！这不是破坏身体或皮肤！
这是艺术！是历史悠久的艺术！
有许多人贪玩才去纹身，这是与你一世人的～
必须想清楚才去纹！
我终于敢post出来了！
我本身也有纹身···虽然是白色的，可是那纹身对我来说都有意义的！
VOGUE love WAACK..这是在我舞蹈生活里，最快上手，而且想不停地去研究的舞蹈！

这是还没完成的！就欠那个爱心！不过已经完成的照片不在我手上！
迟一些在放出来～～

说真的，这种痛真的会让人上瘾，爱上了这种痛～～
'纹身是拥有浓厚的文化色彩,是门神圣的艺术,有着说不完

的故事与知识...不要因为不了解它,而任意贬低曲解它的价值,造成对纹身的知识愚昧.'
纹身等于雕刻着美丽的痛苦-这一些话令我更想去明白纹身的艺术！
不管怎样，接下来的纹身还是一样！有意义的纹身才会让我去纹！

纹身不代表坏-是想让所有人知道这一个神圣的艺术～

我爱我自己，我更爱我身边所有事物，不管是家人，朋友，还是某些事物！
我也明白我自己在做些什么···
可能大家都需要时间来接受某些自己接受不了的事情吧！

=TWILIGHT=

2010-07-16T08:36:00.000-07:00

一直在疯狂！可以说我太疯狂～
但是不至于迷到太够力的那种～～～

twilight saga: new moon,eclipse,breaking dawn!!

看完了一，二，三集～现在要等最后的breaking dawn！！！
从第一集开始看的时候，觉得没怎样···但是看了第二集，又想再看第三集！
大从第一集开始，蛮喜欢男女主角～～

kristen stewart as bella swan

robert pattinson as edward cullen

taylor lautner as jacob black

当然这是cullen家族～

Peter facinelli as DR.Carlisle cullen
Elizabeth reaser as Esme cullen
Nikki reed as Rosalie hale
Kellan lutz as Emmet cullen
Ashley greene as alice cullen
Jackson rathbone as jasper whitlock

到了WOLF家族～～

Chaske spencer as Sam uley
Alex meraz as Paul
Tyson houseman as Quil ateara
Kiowa gordon as Embry call

Tinsel korey as Emily
Booboo stewart as Seth clearwater(new)
Julia jones as Leah clearwater(new)

接下来是在new moon里出现的vampire family
VOLTURI···

Michael sheen as Aro
Dakota fanning as jane
Jamie champell bower as Caius
Christopher hayerdahl as Marcus
Cameron bright as Alec

Charlie bewley as Demetri

Daniel cudmore as Felix
Noot seear as heidi

在eclipse里有添加了几个角色～
像是victoria的手下～

Xavier samuel as Riley

Jodelle ferland as Bree

好多cast～～=，=

××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××
再来就是要说～
添加了不少帅哥···嘻嘻嘻嘻～
像是jamie champbell,charlie bewley,alex meraz这一型的～
我还是喜欢看帅哥吧！

charlie bewley and jamie champbell!! 超有型的！！

Jamie campebell bower

charley bewley

Alex meraz

这三位新血都超帅的～～哈哈～很有型！！！

还有啊～在第一集曾经出现过的krys hyatt··
他是一位native american吧！
在第一集的时候是饰演embry cal···jacob的朋友！可是接下来都被换角了！
=,=

再来就是soundtrack~还是我的最爱MUSE
这三集里都有他们的歌！超好听～
还有lykke li，喜欢她的possibility，这首出现在new moon里！
看来许多人都疯twilight了！包括我在内！！哈哈哈～～
迟点就收集完twilight saga! =）
就当个收藏吧！

wawawawa........==

2010-07-12T12:14:00.000-07:00

angelyne...
wtf...u lost ur phone but u duno! omg...
luckily bobby already keep it ..if not..dont cry because lost phone!
how hard i contact her....
i keep ask ppl and call ur home number
till my phone low battery and out of credits..
see...im so sayang u!!!!
love you always!!!

today..today...today!!
i keep asking myself...isit something wrong with me?
why all ppl so weird ...
haha...
interesting stuff...
showdown again...wata so happening in FB!!
nice nice nice...
feel like look down u guys...
so disappointed because what u guys say!
u guys is great but dont use BITE word...because u bite ppl too!
sometime...u have to change ur mind..
not for us
because u destroy the history..pls...stay peace..!!
keep support street culture~

peace with love..

也太······大胆了吧？

2010-07-01T11:15:00.000-07:00

做了一些大胆的事！！
这是一世人的哦···决定了吗？？
我决定了～～
终于做完了····迟点将会扑上来····

我蛮喜欢的！！

这次是一个不错的经验···好像会上瘾的哦？？
我就是了吧！！！！！！

吃点将放照片上来～～～
朋友们期待吧？？？

哈哈哈哈哈～～～～·

World cup & bored today!

2010-06-22T08:54:00.000-07:00

oh my lady gaga...
world cup > hottest stuff now..
even i'm not the one of football freaks..
but still interested ..k??
haha..
anyway~ i'm still remembered last night portugal vs north korea
7:0...SHOCK gao gao!!!
by the way..i love Christiano Ronaldo..ofcoz his number is 7
that's my name...LOL....
he's smile,eyes,figure killing me softly! seriously! HAHA

nothing much today..
hang out with my buddy
check out new tattoo shop in rawang!
i have no idea there is tattoo shop..because it doesnt look like TATTOO shop??!!!
went there around 2 something...weather is fucking hot siaa..
ofcoz i havent tattoo yet! just went there for fun and asking prices!
lotsa my friends interested in tattoo....VON,ANGELYNE,TING DONG!!
c'mon girls...just do it...<3

tomorrow early morning have to arrive sunway n waiting yusuf..
so ....
need to packing my stuff now...
say BYE to yall...

and good night....
xoxo=)